Decisions Pending

J and I are still mulling over our options to for the next part of our trying to conceive journey.

I finally got the andrology report.  It is as we feared.  Our procedure took more eggs and created less embryos.

The first two of my labs came back and looked good.  I'm now waiting on the Beta2 Glycoprotein test results. 

For J we are still waiting for him to find the time in his busy Army life to get the karyotyping done.  Just because he has plenty of sperm and they look great, for the most part, under the microscope doesn't mean he is the problem or isn't the problem.  But the andrology report kind of points a bit of a finger in his direction as to the why it might have failed.

I'm just hoping it was a fluke.  I'm hoping, believe me I'm truly hoping and praying, that the karyotyping reveals all is well. I'd hate to think that my husband is going to blame himself for the last cycle failing where we all know there are a lot of variables in a pregnancy.  Anything can go wrong after they are transferred.

If we do the donor embryos again it looks like our best option will again be the two guaranteed blastocysts.  Again I'll opt to put both back to up my chances of pregnancy. 

If something is really screwy with the karyotyping we'll opt to go donor embryo.  It is way less expensive than adoption but we'll only be getting one embryo. That kind of bothers me.  At my age I'd like to have two embryos due to better odds of having one implant.

For now it is all pending.  Most likely the karyotyping won't get done until next month.  Then we are going to take a much needed vacation in August if all goes well.  Maybe in September we'll make the final decision of what way to go from here.

Oh and still no period.  CD 27.  Do I think I'm pregnant?  Not highly likely.

Bit of Confusion

So yeah I just found out I won't be doing a FET in late April/early May.  I made my last payment on the eggs yesterday and I got an email back from the nursing staff.  The email says that in 3-4 week they'll have my embryos made.

I called today to state that my new cycle has yet to start.  No I am not pregnant.

I found out again from talking to Sarah at PNW that it will take them 3-4 weeks to make the embryos.  Wait what?

Why does it take 3-4 weeks to make embryos?  We aren't doing a fresh cycle.  As far as I know it might take about a week to make the embryo and maybe another week to get it to blast stage.  3-4 weeks sounds mighty long.

So they aren't worried that my period hasn't started.  I won't worry either.  It will get here when it gets here.  If it hasn't started by CD 40 I'll call my local clinic to get provera.  Today is only CD 27.

Hmm...so maybe end of May/early June for the FET?  Oh who knows!  So my spouse and I were either mislead or confused when they told us 4-6 weeks from the time my period starts to the day of transfer at the three hour appointment.  Most likely we just got confused.

On a different note, I'm thinking about getting back into doing my watercolors.  Here are two that I did years ago.  The first one was when I still married to the first guy.  It is rather moody and so was I. 

 

Mind you this is my very first free-hand, my own drawing, and without an art course watercolor.  I think I did this one back in 2001.

The next watercolor I did and will put up here is one that I painted when I was dating J, my wonderful husband.  As you can see the colors are lighter.  Again I have had no formal art training or drawing.  So I'm warning you I'm not very good.

I was drawing, then painting this while sitting on J's grandmother's front porch in Lake Luzerne New York.  Looking out onto her garden and paved walkway.  J loves to remind me that my perspective is off, and yes it is.  After that I shut down painting thinking I would never be good enough to even make him happy.  Well painting makes me happy so that is what matters and I bought a small ruler to keep in my paint box to try to keep things more level.

I signed my last name on one of the logs in the pile in the painting.  I'm sure you can see it.

Maybe to keep myself relaxed while I wait for this cycle to start I'll do some painting?  I can't promise myself I will as life's little household tasks always seem to intrude upon my personal time.

I prefer to use Winsor and Newton but that is just me.