Stupid Foot

I now am the proud owner of a pair of crutches.  Yup the foot hurt that bad that I made a doctor appointment.  Sighs, there goes my four day weekend.

I have a medial right foot strain.  I might have something broken as well since they badly wanted xrays.  Because I'm not yet pregnant, I ovulated on Wednesday, I agreed to the xrays.

Its a DONSA here on post and that means that even though I had xrays done my PCM won't get a look at them until Tuesday.  Oh Joy! 

J is handling this quite well and is determined to only be half a yell away from me.  Its unusual that he is willing to wait on me hand and foot but I'll take it because right now hobbling about to get a glass of water is not fun.  I haven't been on crutches since 7th grade.  I've been in a walking cast twice but it didn't call for crutches.

No I didn't get much sleep last night, not so much the insomnia being the reason but the pain from the weight of the covers on the bed.  I was whining quite a bit about how much it hurt.  No, still haven't taken pain medicine.  They wanted to give me NSAIDS but I have a bad stomach so its just acetaminophen for me. 

I started my progesterone this morning.  So I'll be the gimp with the leaky cootchie, you know the endometrin slime.  I just can't believe how much I had to fight with my RE about it.  First clue, big duh, my periods are short so I'm always low on progesterone how about doing some blood work dumb *ss.  Of course they won't.  So that is why I had to argue with them to get put on it.

Maybe if I feel more up to hobbling about today I'll go shopping.  I need to refill the fridge, condiments while nice to have aren't real food in my book.

Vacation Aftermath

I feel a bit like the Peter Iredale right about now.  I've been trying to get my bank statement and checking account to balance.  Normally this isn't such a stressful task however, this vacation proved to be the one that broke my proverbial last straw.

Not one but two discrepancies in the account.  I keep all the receipts.  First one was finally resolved.  We had been charged for our meal and an additional amount nearly double what our meal was, indicating that another table got their meal for free. 

Second discrepancy was found this morning.  Gas fill ups take a while to clear the account and finally this morning they all showed up.  Again I keep my receipts.  I found an error of $8.00.  I'm not happy.  I called up the gas station on our military installation where the purchase was made.  The manager gave me a number to call and complain as it seems that this happens quite often.  She said to be patient as the number is quite busy and indeed it is.  Meanwhile I called my bank and filed a dispute for the amount. 

J is back to his cranky self.  It didn't take long.  He started to get cranky the last morning and it took all my energy to come up with things to do to take his mind off his impending deployment and tooth extractions.  It didn't work of course, the grouch returned.  This morning his face is still swollen on just one side so he is headed back to the dentist to find out why.  He has to head over for some details on his deployment today too.  I realize that he is supposed to be grouchy but I don't have to like it.  Soldiers are always grouchy before they deploy.  Its really a wall of protection that they put up in place to prevent them from getting too emotional about their families.  We don't like the wall and they don't like it but it has to be there.  If he is continuously thinking about how bad things are for me here at home he can't concentrate on his job while deployed.  So for now I'm just going to have to suck it up and realize that he has to be a bit of a jerk right now, he doesn't like it either.

Less than 1 % of the population of the United States will voluntarily serve in the US Military.  Of those that serve the majority are in their early 20's and unmarried.  There is a good reason for that, most of them can't afford to have a family.  It was still the policy back when my dad served to not let a soldier of a rank lower than E-5 to marry without the permission of his commander and there had to be a darn good reason why he had to get married.  Most soldiers serving today are E-4 and below and really and truly there is no way they can afford to get married and start their families on what is dished out for pay.  But some do it and I applaud their efforts to keep their families together.

So I'm ever more thoughtful and concerned about the status of my family today.  I'm thinking that perhaps going on clomid for our last cycle wasn't such a good idea.  I realize that clomid brings with a lot of emotional changes and with J not being in the best of moods of late this might cause a bit more shouting matches with less rational thinking.  Don't worry it never gets beyond name calling.

I'm still hoping that we can squeeze in one more mini holiday before he leaves.  He wanted to see the northwestern most corner of the continental US before he leaves.  We have listed a three day on the calendar due to a DONSA but J already stated he wouldn't be getting the day off.  I mentioned that we could still escape over night, just one night away.  He needs the escape from his stress right now.  He had a massage on Tuesday and he was so tight from all the stress.  Maybe I could just book him another massage?

DONSA

I'm happy to say that Monday is a DONSA for my husband.  DONSA means a day of no scheduled activity.

This weekend I'll be thinking a lot about the friend I lost in 9/11.  I'll be thinking that I'm grateful that my family escaped the fate that many did not.  I'll be praying that no terrorist decides to take revenge on us for offing two of their leaders in such a short period of time.  Remember Osama bin Laden was taken out and a few weeks ago we took out the next on the food chain  too.

Personally I think that religion is a choice and one that shouldn't lead to violence.  I could go on for paragraphs here about my feeling on that particular subject but I won't.  I will say that I feel bad for the families of our citizens that have yet to gain closure.

On an intimate fertility note the endo pain started increasing again over the past few days, and cramping got worse last night and today its not any better.  I have to say that Endometriosis just sucks!  I was warned that even though I'm on hormones for suppression this could happen and to expect it.  Not much can be done about it.  The IVF cycle is full of different hormones and this is not going to be a joy ride on my reproductive organs.

So with the Endo pain I'm not sure just how much I'll be enjoying this weekend with my spouse.  We had made plans to escape town and head out a few hours north but I think that most likely we'll just be staying put unless the pain subsides enough.

I finally got around to making the cookies for the soldiers at the COF yesterday.  Tuesday and Wednesday were filled up so that I didn't even get the me time I had hoped for.  Finally yesterday I had a little break in my chores to get cookies made so I made the Oatmeal Scotchies.  Hopefully they like them.