Not Very Patient

It stands to reason that because I'm infertile and I go through so very many tests and procedures the folks about me would think that I'm a very patient person.  I'm not.  I home tested yet again this morning.

Finally I figured out the exact date of my ovulation.  16th of November.  Okay that means that the next day would be the first day in the two week wait.  Today being the 27th of November is day 11 or 11DPO for those that prefer to write it that way.  Still negative.

Being that the HPT was negative I used an OPK too, I just wanted to see what was going on there.  I got two lines.  Why on Earth would I use an OPK?  Well it can be used for a HPT. HCG and LH are similar hormones found in the body.  An OPK tests for the LH at higher amounts so that each test when positive with a dark line would show true since LH is always found in the body at trace amounts.  HCG and LH at a molecular level are nearly identical but for the fact that HCG has a little extra something however it means that an OPK can still detect HCG levels.

So knowing this I tested and found a line, not really dark but a line in the test area besides the control area of my OPK.  My OPK line is darker than the one on the website, so does this mean I won?  Well the HPT test was either so faint it had to be turned at an angle and looked at with special binoculars or there just isn't one visible without super human vision.

A better understanding of how to use this trick is at peeonastick.com 
Here are the photos for the same number of DPO to mine from their site.

For some reason my camera just bites when it comes to taking photos of late.  My HPT was identical to the above and a line wasn't really there either.  But my OPK was a lot darker.

The OPK is the blue ended one and HPT is the pink/red ended one.  Like I said my camera bites of late.  Something with the auto focus and I'm starting to wonder if it got dropped without me knowing about it. This does not mean I am ovulating as my test line was still much lighter than the control line.  I know that things can be screwed up for a while after a miscarriage.  Maybe in February I'll get the BFP after the January IVF.

Okay so if I don't get at least a decent faint line tomorrow for 12DPO I'm going to not test the following day.  I'll not test again until my period is late.  I doubt it will be late, even though my breasts still ache when I cross my arms.

Note that I've still been puking up a bit and last night my temp was over 99 but under 100 using my BBT thermometer (99.24). So I either have a touch of the flu, remainders of slight food poisoning (no more egg smelling belches after the first few hours of it), or something just isn't right in my temple.  Some tan spotting continues, had a touch of pink last night but I think it was from trying to detect the cervix position.  I might have irritated it a bit.

Whatever happens I know I have January IVF as my back up.  I'm taking it easy today because I feel ill.  J has gone to the grocery store to pick up some fill in foods to our cabinet until I feel like going for a full grocery trip again.  He can be a sweetie when he wants something.  LOL

Feeling A Little Sick

Okay I'm tired, so tired that I slept in until 1030 hrs today.  I tried to nap yesterday afternoon but my bladder had other ideas.  NOT PREGNANT still.  Yup you heard me, the test is still negative.

So I'm probably testing way too soon.  I'm not due for another cycle to start until at the earliest 1 December.  I had a three day window of LH surge and I figured that yesterday was my 10DPO.  I could be wrong and it could be the final day of the three day surge.

My boobs, while not as sensitive as yesterday are still swollen, tender and plain annoying as they seem to be everywhere but where they should be which is staying within the limits of my bra.

I'm nauseated right now after eating.  Could be the flu as early this A.M.  my belches were smelling of sulfur.  Thankfully that smell has gone away and I really hope it doesn't come back.  After researching the smell it seems to have come from what I ate yesterday at Subway Store # 6901, a meatball sub.  Can you say food poisoning?  At least it was mild enough of an attack but I won't be eating at that place again.  So if I am pregnant I really hope this won't affect the embryo, if there is an embryo.

I would like to thank the bloggers at Miss Conception and A Blanket 2 Keep for giving me this award.  I really appreciate her thoughtfulness in deciding I deserved it.  Her blog is an IF journey of conception and loss and how she is coping with it all.  I can only hope to be as strong as she is.

This Award is given to bloggers who have less than 200 followers, all in the spirit of fostering new connections. Leibster is German & means ‘dearest’ or ‘beloved’ but it can also mean ‘favorite’. The idea of the Leibster award is to bring attention to blogs with less than 200 followers.

Here are the rules:

1. Thank the giver and link back to the blogger who gave it to you.

2. Reveal your top five picks and let them know by leaving a comment on their blog.

3. Copy and paste the award on your blog.

4. Hope that the people you’ve sent the award to forward it to their five favorite bloggers and keep it going!

#1 is Alex

I read her blog about her twin pregnancy because as we all know creating one baby is hard but creating twins is extra hard.  She really deserves this award.

#2 Another Dreamer 

She  has a dream to have a baby and has never given up.  With only a few weeks to go in her pregnancy I love to hear how the she is getting everything ready.  One day I hope to be in her shoes and having my own nursery prepped.

#3Singlemom2b

I give this award to her because she is going about this whole IF process without a partner.  I applaud her decision.  I know I couldn't do it without my spouse as I'm a big baby.

#4 Pork Chop this one is for you.  You always keep my spirits up.  Thanks for being there for me.  I really enjoy reading your blog.

#5 Paul  can't forget you man.  I've known you since I was a bratty teen.  I love reading your blog about your adoption and your family unit how it goes on with struggles, joys and winter life in the North Country of NY

For the rest of you,  I love reading all your blog post.  Really I do.  I wouldn't follow your blogs unless I found them interesting.  Keep up the good work.