Three times in the past 24 hours I've told my spouse I wish I was dead. Yes, the pain is that bad. I've tried taking acetaminophen for the pain but that hasn't helped. Often I think that acetaminophen is just a joke but it is one of the main ingredients in vicodin and percocet too.
I think I've forgotten what sleep is. I haven't had two solid hours of sleep in about a week. I know that with my fibromyalgia I will usually get 2-3 hours at a time throughout the night. Of late not even that and its making me more fatigued when the bleeding is added in.
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In the past hour I've passed in less than a 5 minute period two blood clots the size of Eisenhower silver dollars. I thought I was going to pass out from the pain. I guess this is to be expected when my uterine lining was measuring 10.2 mm the day of the embryo transfer. That is a lot of blood and it has to come back out. I just wish it didn't chose to try to come out all at once.
My spouse has offered to come home and take care of me. I might just have him do that as movement is really painful right now. Those of you that have endometriosis and have had a miscarriage will understand how painful things are for me right now.
I could hit the percocet I have here but I'm always so afraid to take it because of the fact that I might build up a tolerance to it. With another egg retrieval due in January I don't want to have the same pain medicine not work. The egg retrieval was very painful. If I was the slightest bit jostled I yelped in pain.
Deep breath in and blowing out. Another wave of pain and cramping just hit. Okay that's it for blogging for me today. Time to go yowl.
