CD 3 and 3rd day of photos

What's for dinner?  Well it surely isn't this stuff.  Tonight I'm making Shepard's Pie since J is still on a soft food diet.  Photo taken inside the museum on Fort Stevens.  We decided to go back to Fort Stevens the last day to look around since when we arrived in Astoria area the museum was getting ready to close.

Can you even imagine eating this stuff for your meal?  MRE aren't all that tasty and I can only think that this stuff from WW II must have been horrible to choke down.

I just thought that the GI Joe dolls action figures dressed up were kind of cool.  One museum guide said that in a particular display all the items were from Japan and made there too.  I made a comment that she didn't understand.  I said, "I bet the dolls were made in China.". 

Rather obvious that this was the Guard House located on Fort Steven's  state park.





Okay now for today's fertility update.  First day of the clomid.  My RE had agreed to 1/2 tablet a day to prevent cysts but the directions say 1 tablet a day for the five days I take it.  Fun times ahead with cysts, though I really hope not. 
As for the supplements I'm taking, its the usual prenatals, vitamin E, calcium, magnesium, D3, fish oil and now to add to the mix Melatonin.  I saw it on another blogger's page and I figured what the heck I could use a better night's sleep with this fibromyalgia.  Even though I'm not doing IVF this cycle I figured it couldn't hurt to try to up my egg quality since they are pretty much shit now due to the endometriosis and my age.

That's all until tomorrow.  Oh and to make the shepard's pie extra pretty I'm using purple potatoes.

Reading Up On The Reason Why

I've been doing a lot of reading up on the subjects of miscarriage, IVF, and pregnancy over the past few weeks.  I knew what could happen but now I want to find out why.

I need to know why if only to figure out a way to help prevent another miscarriage.  Maybe if we try again we can use a different protocol.  Changing out medicines might make the difference or perhaps a change in dosage amounts.

These were my facts:

1) I have a BMI of 32.  I need to lose more weight to sustain a healthy pregnancy.

2)  I have hypertension.  I need to find techniques within my means of lowering the blood pressure to help my medications work better.  My cardiologist doubled my hypertension medicine before the start of the injections.  I need to avoid stress.  Well perhaps I should just divorce and forget IVF right?  Nope not going to happen.  My spouse and I love one another too much to let this end our marriage.

3)  My age is 42.  Nothing I can do about that detail.

4) I have fibromyalgia.  I wonder if that is causing some of the issues with my fertility.

5)  I have two small cysts on my thyroid gland.  Though they aren't seeming to cause any major problems with my thyroid producing the hormone I do wonder if they still might of concern.

6)  I have endometriosis.  Again nothing I can personally do about that issue.  Losing weight and exercising isn't going to make it go away though it might make the endo pain a bit less.

7)  Not all my follicles were developing at the same rate.  I lost out on several good sized follicles by doing what the doctor said and waiting several days for the other ones to develop.  I went from four good ones to two and of the two one made it.  So maybe different strength drugs or different meds are needed. I always have plenty of follicles on clomid.

Now what I found out is this:  SHIT HAPPENS!  Yes, just that.  Sometimes even if thing are perfect, like my 8 celled embryo (JR) something can and will go wrong.  No matter how much I want to lay the blame on someone else it happened.  Sure the stress I was under probably didn't help the cause but what can I do about outside influences?

So I'm still reading and hoping to find a cause.  Something that will pinpoint the problem area with an "ah-ha" moment of clarity.  Something that can be fixed so it doesn't happen again.  If you've got a clue, I'm all ears.