Suppression Lab Results

I got my lab report back late yesterday afternoon.  I wouldn't have had the results at all if I hadn't of called my local clinic.

Putting the phone on speaker so that my friend, TM, could hear the nurse we got the excuse that the doctor that ordered the labs wasn't on that day so that they wouldn't have gotten notice of the labs at all.   I swear my local, Army, clinic is full of excuses as to why they are lazy.

Every time I have lab work I make a note of which doctor is listed on my lab papers.  I ask each time I have an appointment which doctors are on duty that day.  When I see the doctor in my room I make sure to remind him and the nurse that I need the information from the labs sent over to PNW!  They say they will do that too.  There are no excuse for this level of incompetence!

E2 (estrogen) 10.7  anything under 50 is suppressed

TSH was 3.14 down 0.5 from last month of 3.19

TSH is not down enough.  I am to double my 25 mcg dosage to 50 mcg daily until the Beta.

Reduced Lupron to 5 units daily.

Applied 2 Alora patches today.

Had to email PNW that I will need a new script as I after counting my pills on hand and noting that it is a 90 day script which means the pharmacy will not refill it until near 90 days I won't have enough.

Oh and that donor embryo I'm getting, well the couple that used them or I should say had them made from his sperm and a donor's eggs put back only two embryo and ended up with triplets.  Yes one of the embryos split.  So that is the reason my clinic, PNW, is so confident I have a really good chance at pregnancy this cycle.  I'm putting back one donor embryo and one embryo of my husband's gametes and a donor egg.  Hoping at least one sticks.

Next scan in two weeks.

Weight Gain Won't Clean This Post

Anyone get the laundry detergent pun in the post title?

Well okay this week I managed to gain a total of 1.8 pounds.  Go me!  Not really.  Rather upset at my body.  I guess my plans for pushing the loss to 3 pounds didn't go so well.  I didn't mess with my diet.  I ate more protein, less salt, more fiber, drank more water, exercised more.  The estrogen won out.  Damn!

All I can do is hope that I hold out even the next couple of weeks before the transfer.

I did everything possible to lose that 1.8 pounds.  Boo!  I even ate BEANS last night for dinner. I made the beans from dried beans as to make sure the sodium content would stay down.  Damn estrogen is still constipating me a bit.  Every time my estrogen is up, I hope it isn't up too much, I get issues with weight gain and IBS.

I ate oatmeal yesterday too.  Adding in even more fiber so that not much fat would stay with me.  For two days I have weighed the same.  Maybe I should be thankful that I'm staying the same and not gaining?  Okay so I am thankful God, please don't let me gain more.

I think this jacks my BMI back up 34 again.  I think I told all of you before, at least once, that I am quite embarrassed by my size.  I'm a size 16.  I'm obese.  Wishing I were still a size 8.  But that size 8 is still in there, I ate her!  Hmmm...maybe that would explain why I'm having troubles going poo? 

I blame my weird sense of humor on the warped reading choice of late.  I'm reading a book by the Harvard Lampoon, a spoof on the Rings trilogy.  Thar be a lot of poo in them pages.

Well now that I've gotten the shit off my brain I feel a bit better.  Hope all of you have a fantastic Friday.

Two Hearts; not always better than one

There are days I just want to have a hissy fit.  Today might just be one of them.

0845 hrs J drops me off at Madigan so I can get my blood work done then go to my appointment at the RE clinic at 1040 hrs.

Lab runs me through quickly which was rather surprising.  At 0915 hrs I'm at the clinic.  I tell the receptionist that I know I'm early but I'll wait since I had to get blood work.  She puts my folder up on the top of the desk.  I get called in next.  Okay so much for waiting.

At this point it doesn't matter about the blood work.  I know I'm not pregnant and I know with the pain, diarrhea, and nausea I've been getting things aren't good.    In comes Dr. B.  In goes the probe.  Up on the screen he marks where I'm shedding my uterine lining and mentions that I've probably got a few more days to go with that.  I knew that too. 

Now for the bad stuff.  Yup the cyst is still there.  Its not smaller.  Still same dimensions just a different shape.  Its shaped like a heart.  A 5 CM HEART!!!

So no letrozole for me. 

No pass go and collect extra follicles this cycle.

Sex only  with extra caution and no deep penetration because we might just twist the ovary.  I'm not winning folks.

The only good thing that Dr.B. said was that I'm ovulating on my own.  He said that unfortunately I'm not producing quality eggs.  This I knew.

Again I chat with him about the Donor Egg Program in Seattle.  J isn't with me, he is at work.  I'm waiting on his re-enlistment when his profile has expired.  That is if they'll let him re-enlist.  Talk about stress.

I walked home from the hospital.  Its less than a mile and I can use the exercise.  I've only lost a pound this week.

Yes, we are done with my DNA unless a miracle occurs. 

We are done trying totally unless he can re-enlist.

We can't do donor eggs until we get my cyst issue under control.  That means birth control, most likely, once it is resolved.  We need to prevent further estrogen producing cysts which would muck up a donor egg cycle.

I have to say I'm disappointed with the cyst still being there but I knew it was there from the symptoms I've been getting.  However, I am excited, but I don't want to get my hopes up that we can move on to donor eggs.  I want to do donor eggs.  I'd rather eliminate the possibility of passing on some genetics that are mine that could be bad (IE: endometriosis, fibromyalgia, heart disease, diabetes on both sides of my family) and go with the "rock star" eggs.

Keep me in your thought and prayers if you would.  Next RE appointment is slated for 4 September.  We'll see what the next scan shows in a month.