Last night when it started to hit again I asked my husband to sit down and just listen to me for a few minutes. I knew I had to explain to him, its been almost a year since we last used clomid, what I'm experiencing. Its in no way his fault. I willingly took the medications each morning. I know what I'm doing when I am on them but it doesn't mean I have to like the person it makes me change into. I really swear that there are two of me right now. There is the nice gentle me and the raging b*tch me that seems to take over in the evenings. The nice me gets pushed to the back and bullied to stay silent while the mean me just vomits horribly abusive words.
Maybe I should be tranquilized for the duration of this cycle?
The only good thing coming out of this so far is the pain I'm feeling in both ovaries. Oh yes I'm hopeful that I'm producing several follicles. If I produce two on my own without drugs then I can hope for four, right?
Ugh I remember the days of clomid and it made me a crazy lady! I hope you get a few good ones this month!
ReplyDeleteMe too Toni. Hope you are feeling better soon.
DeleteI have never taken Clomid but have heard of its side effects :-( Hopefully you will feel more normal soon.
ReplyDeleteI usually respond well to clomid. On one tablet I was producing 5-6 follicles. On 1/2 tablet it was 4 follicles. However I do experience really bad mood swings. Sunday it will most likely reach its peak of crankiness. I'm hoping that since I'm on one tablet a day for five days that I'll get 6 follicles again with the hope for one good quality egg. I had two follicles last month and one blood cyst without any medications. For me its the endometriosis and egg quality.
DeleteThat is a great response. I wish you the best.
DeleteThanks Sunflower.
DeleteI am sorry for the horrible side effects of nasty Clomid. However, I am hopeful your body will do the same as it has and produce lots of follicles. :)
ReplyDeleteMy body doesn't react well to Clomid. Only had one follie and wound up with OHSS. So I'm working on getting switched to Letrozole instead.
Hugs for the bad side effects! I feel ya on that! They suck!
Hang in there lady! xo
I guess I'm lucky that I produce, usually and finger crossed, plenty of follicles while on clomid. As a matter of fact in 1996 it was the medicine I used to get pregnant. But we all know that 16 years makes a big difference in egg quality.
DeleteI've never taken clomid. It sounds like you are getting good results, but still, those side effects suck! And I thought Lupron was bad.
ReplyDeleteWhen I was taking IVF meds I kept reminding myself that it could be worse, I could be back on clomid. LOL
DeleteHoping for some good follicles. Sorry you have such bad side effects from Clomid. It usually gave me the CloMood Weepies and major hot flashes, which really isn't bad compared to some. Hope the side effects don't last too long for you!
ReplyDeleteRight now I'm so not loving the constipation from the clomid. Ugh! That just adds to my crankiness. Oh and now I can't sleep.
DeleteThe first time I took clomid it was horrible! I'm sorry you get such a bad reaction to it. I hope it is all worth it and you get lots of perfect follies!
ReplyDeleteThanks Emily. I'll just be happy to get one and have it stick. I have doubts, lots of doubts with all the stress J and I are dealing with right now.
DeleteIt's the devil drug! DH and I might get a divorce if I ever have to get back on it.
ReplyDeleteEvery time I've been on clomid I've threatened to divorce him before he even had the chance to say the first letter of the word. I'm really not a nice person when on this drug.
DeleteI'm still here hoping for good things to come. I'm on your team!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks Stephanie. I'm hoping that you'll be up to the training and able to finish with your sister near the top.
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