Military Spouses Support Each Other

First off I'll begin with what I was just told by the RE nurse N.  She said today, because while I was out yesterday she didn't get back to me again, that Dr. B. said, '" if I felt the need for the CD 21 test they could do it but that all it would prove is that I ovulated when its a 3 or better."'.  Enough said on that one, we know via ultrasound that I definitely did ovulate this cycle.  NO NEED for that test.

However, she did argue with me about the miscarriage of the twins I had in 1996 on the topic of not enough progesterone.  She said, "how could they even tell you didn't have enough?".  Its what Major D (my female RE doctor) told me.  Its in my records, the paper ones, of which have been stored away at another location far from this installation.

Now as for the endometrin, yes Dr. C. said I could take it as it wouldn't hurt anything but he still advises against it.  Am I going to take it?  You bet.  I just inserted one and ta-da I saw spotting of brown on the applicator.  That isn't good.  Its way too early for the spotting of the period to begin and its way too late for the implantation bleeding too.  Yeah um, something isn't quite right.  So hopefully the spotting will stop and the progesterone will help if indeed there is something in there.  Nurse N, yes the very one that said I was never really pregnant with the IVF, said that she doesn't like that I look stuff up on the internet.  I told her that I didn't this time, and I haven't.  I said it was from experience and the stuff that a friend with a similar experience had that put me wise to this particular issue.  Okay maybe my REI clinic here needs an over haul.  How much longer until some of this particular staff gets orders to a new military base is what I'm wondering?  Inconsiderate and insensitive.

Yesterday I went shopping with my friend S. S says that after our guys leave we are going to have to get together quite often, I said once a week and she said, "only once a week?".  Okay I can see once a week won't be enough and I do like my fun time with S no matter how exhausting it can be for this introvert.  I feel bad  for S.  Her spouse is deploying soon too.  Neither one of our spouses will be getting block leave or mid tour leave.  Nope they are just getting their butts ordered onto the transportation to leave us behind.

Deployments for me are a lot different than those for the spouse who is left behind with children to care for.  I have no pets, no kids and no family on this coast, nothing that would hold me back but lack of money and fears of traveling alone.  For S, she has dogs and two kids but her family lives overseas.  At least for me, if I felt froggy enough to do so, I could just take off and go visit my family while J is deployed.  S can't just take off.  S would have to put the pets in a boarding facility and get all sorts of paperwork done just to leave the country and re-enter.  It is nice to be able to just up and leave.  Sure I'd have to find someone to house sit and make sure my plants get watered but really is my life all that hard?  It can be when I have a fibro flare.

Yes when J is gone there is no sex, I eat alone, I sleep alone, I do everything alone except for when I'm with S and we go shopping.  Shopping with S is my break from the loneliness.  So yes, psychologically it is hard for me  because I'm more apt to develop depression from the isolation.  However, deployments are just as hard on the women that have children to take care of.  Each side of the coin has its own ups and downs.

By Monday I should know if I got my unicorn.  I have my doubts now that I saw some brown on the applicator.   Oh and with any luck J might be able to plead for Friday off so that we can get some more much need couple time together.  However, I'll not keep my fingers crossed on that one.  I asked him to ask today for Friday. Oh and yes I already have the sightseeing booked.

Progesterone (P4)

7 dpo

> 15 ng/ml

A progesterone test is done to confirm ovulation. When a follicle releases its egg, it becomes what is called a corpus luteum and produces progesterone. A level over 5 probably indicates some form of ovulation, but most doctors want to see a level over 10 on a natural cycle, and a level over 15 on a medicated cycle. There is no mid-luteal level that predicts pregnancy. Some say the test may be more accurate if done first thing in the morning after fasting.