Taking A Day Off

I decided I'd had enough of testing and worrying.  I'm not testing today.  Sure I could change brands of the test strips as I have another brand and two digital sticks too but I'm not doing any testing.  Why?  Because I can't hold my pee long enough!

I might break down tomorrow and ruin my morning before church to take a digital.  But I might decide to not take one at all.

Today I'll just take care of my needs and I might do some grocery shopping later if I feel up to it.


Symptoms for today so far:

• Breast tenderness
• Weight gain.  I gained back 0.6 lbs of the 0.8 I lost the day before.
• Nausea
• Slight headache
• Mild back ache
• plenty of mucus up and down.  I swear my nose is going to go raw here soon from blowing it.
• my size 14 pants are now uncomfortable to wear.  That blows!
• Bit of constipation but that goes hand in hand with my IBS.  I'll just make sure to keep eating my figs each day and I should be fine.

But, all in all, any of those symptoms could be pointing to a pending new cycle.  No spotting since that tiny bit two days ago.  No bleeding or smell of blood (yes I'm one of those that can smell a trace of when its going to start).

Other than J doing the laundry and shrinking a pair of my smaller sized 16 jeans in the dryer this week, I told him they go on the drying rack not in the dryer, I have nothing really to complain about.  Except the dreams.

Oh boy the dreams are getting weird.  I can remember bits and pieces of the ones I had last night and yesterday too.  This morning I woke up from a dog dream.  I was at my parents' house before the remodeling they did in the 70's and there were dogs everywhere.  Including cartoon dogs.  I was the only one that could see them and they were tripping other people up.  It was a humorous dream.  Another dream I had was that a doctor told me I was pregnant.  That was always nice to have for a dream.  Lets just hope that one turns out to be true.

J is taking on the responsibilities slowly.  I think slow is good.  We still aren't sure if he is going to be one of the soldiers that will deploy soon.  I'm hoping not but there is always that chance, especially when they announced at a meeting last month that they are sending the rest of the brigade.  I know when they leave but I'm not sure he is going to be on the list.  Not knowing and thinking about it will drive me batty.  I've got other things to think of right now, like staying pregnant and getting a good beta number on Monday.