I realize at my age its rare to conceive naturally. I realize with my medical issues I might get another embryo only to have it refuse to implant. I realize that I might, just might have a snow balls chance in hell of creating a baby.
I'll take what I can get.
So this is where I am in my life. Its down to experimenting. I'm experimenting with my infertility and my diet. I tried eating a sugary treat with wheat in it only to start belching it back up within minutes. My right hip is refusing to cooperate today due to the damp cold weather so I'm experimenting with different sitting positions trying to find a measure of comfort.
There is of course life beyond the medical aspect that seems to rule many of an infertiles life. I'm actively planning my garden. I will set seeds to peet in the next week. I'm quite excited to have something edible growing again. I do the garden thing every year.
I'm also planning a weekend trip with J. We just need to get away from here for a little bit. We can't go far without having to file paperwork with the Army so its only going to be within the state. Still it will be nice to have a change of scenery. I'll be sure to take many photos so I can have interesting things to post in my blog in the future.
I think trying naturally is a good thing. First of all, as long as there is a chance thats all you need. A short get a way also sounds lovely. I think I need one of those pretty soon.
ReplyDeleteI think most of us need this mini holidays. Just getting away from the stress is nice.
DeleteYour outlook is looking really positive. I am so glad you are taking some time for yourself and trying naturally even when the chances are low. You are giving that egg a chance (albeit a small chance) and sometimes luck is on our side. We sure could use a bit more though eh?
ReplyDeleteThanks for inspiring me to be more hopeful.
Maybe I'll do a little romancing tonight. The endo pain kind of makes me cringe to think about sex.
DeleteAbsolutely go ahead with trying naturally. You just never know ;-)
ReplyDeleteGood idea on the mini-break, it will help give you a fresh perspective when you get back.
I am exited to hear more about your garden in the coming weeks/months. I love gardening but am limited in yard space so cannot have a veggie patch which is my dream. I am stuck with pots on my patio which work fine, but I would love to have a nice raised bed to plant veggies in.
I have three small flower beds that I plant with flowers and veggies each year. This year I'm expanding a bit and I'm going to use most of my planter boxes as well for the onions that J so loves.
DeleteA snowball's chance is still a chance. Hope you guys have a nice getaway!
ReplyDeleteI'll be sure to take a lot of photos. I'm hoping to feel good enough to go horseback riding. Of course I have the weather that always likes to change my plans too.
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