Need To Get This Off My Chest

Okay so we didn't go to court this week.  It has been postponed until late May.

So the nightmare are continuing.  As soon as the melatonin has worn off, of which it has stopped helping me sleep at even 10 mg a nightly dose, the terrors start.

This morning, after my husband has already left the bedroom, I woke up from a bad dream.  It was horrible.  What woke me up was reaching over and punching the person controlling me in the dream.  In real life I had reached over with my right arm and punched my husband's pillow hard.  Good thing he wasn't sleeping on it!

Yesterday morning I woke up from a bad dream calling out my brother's name.

The day before that was another bad dream.

PTSD really sucks.

I hate being a victim.

Too much bad stuff has happened to me in my life.

Molested at ages 4-8, beaten as a child, mentally abused as child and then as an adult, raped as an adult and then this crap last year with my brother.  Is it any wonder I have bad dreams?

This is the very reason why I refuse to co-sleep with my child....EVER!  If she becomes sick I'll snuggle with her in a chair and I'll stay awake.  I'm good with staying awake. I'm an insomniac that doesn't drink coffee or energy drinks.

Red Cycle

So I guess I can blog about a bit of craziness that is going on here at this installation.  It is always on-going so it really isn't anything new.  But for us it is new because it is the first time my spouse has had to do it.  Last year I was pregnant and we were new to the installation and I guess his company had already done their cycle or something?

It lasts for 30 days no make that 90 days no make that oh hell I don't know how long now because it keeps changing.  Army motto "Adapt and Overcome".  This morning I woke up knowing this:

1. DH got a call saying his dental was being rescheduled
2. He called and got it rescheduled at the time he was supposed to actually have been there for the appointed time that had been cancelled.
3. He was texted that he had the day off of work.
4. Next text said he had to come into work
5. Next text said his leave packet was missing a signature line on it. ( Mind you this was after the place had lost his previous packet two weeks ago.  This time he put a tracking number on the packet.)
6. He has to go to CYSS to register our child.

So no day off.  Not like I even had a chance to make any plans.  I'm still adjusting to the shift change any way.  It is a weird shift.  Eily barely gets to see him but it is better than being deployed.

His packet had better go through for his leave for next week.  We have to be in court in NC next week Wednesday as we are under SUBPEONA.  Yes this is the case where my brother assaulted me using strangulation.

He still just needs an a commander's interview for his schoolhouse packet to leave this place. Unfortunately the commander isn't here.  I really feel bad for the man.  He lost his wife recently.  But there is another person acting in his place and she'll be doing the interview instead.

If all goes well we'll probably be PCSing before this Red Cycle is finished up.

Interesting fact:

Did you know that the gelatin from the pig's bones is used as a carrier for cordite and gunpowder when making bullets?  I wonder if Islamic terrorists know that?  I mean it is cheaper to make your own bullets.

Seasonal Allergies

Achoo!

The whole family is on some sort of allergy medicine.

Eily is on Zyrtec.

DH is on Loratidine and Flonase.

I'm on Flonase.  Wish I could be on a allergy pill.  The meds I take right cause moderate interactions with one another and it might be a little to risky with the blood pressure meds to add in an allergy med.  I'd rather not elevate the risk to high and end up in the hospital just because I'm tired of sneezing and coughing and wheezing.

I dealt with it last year while pregnant I'll just have to deal with it this year too.

Ninth Month Peds Visit

Baby E isn't so small now.

She is: 19.8 lbs/ 8.98 kg
            29.2 inches/ 79.168 cm
            17.91 inches head circumference/ 45.5 cm

She has 2 more teeth coming in on the top to add to the 2 she already has on top the doctor noticed.  She already has her bottom 2 as well.

Happy Easter

Happy Easter!

One Week Away

In just a week E will be 9 months old.

Today her new car seat arrives.  She has outgrown her infant car seat.  We purchased the Britax Advocate Clicktight.  I hope it fits well in our small suv.  We currently have the Britax BSafe infant car seat which takes up a lot of room too so I'm thinking the newer one should fit at least on my side.

E has several words in her vocabulary:
kittycat
daddy
mama
hi
ga-ga and da-da but those are more of a babble that most babies do.

She eats solid foods.  Still is on the bottle of course.  But she does like to try to feed herself with her num num spoon and the feeding spoon plus the finger foods.  She loves peanut butter, veggies, and fruits.

She runs.

She crawls.

She tries to chase after Bugsy but he is still able to out maneuver her.

Top picture was of her teething rash yesterday, today it is mostly gone.  Her top two teeth are visible but not fully descended.  She almost has four teeth now.