I appreciate all the information that you have sent my way when it comes to breast feeding and pumping. I do pump on a regular basis. I don't get a lot. As a matter of fact I'm going to take a photo of my pumping session to show all of you just how much I get. First I have a few minutes to type a bit before I start my pumping so I wanted to let all of you know about how things are going thus far.
My brain is fried.
I wake up with a headache.
I'm up to all hours of the night with Little E. She is worth it. I'm trying to read to her, read another book for myself of which I'll post a blog entry on later this month for my book club, catch up on the computer and twice a month do the billing I used to do. Eventually I'll open up my Etsy shop again, however, I can't see that happening until early next year.
Right now I'm lucky if I can finish my cup of milkmaid tea in just one reheating of it. Oh wait that isn't going to happen again today. But it is all worth it and I will get used to lukewarm tea, very little nutritious food since it is grab and go at this point, and hopefully one shower a week. I can deal with going around in work out clothes in the house and uncombed hair. The fingernails are horrid with ragged cuticles. Again I say it is all worth it. I did plenty of sacrificing to get this baby and I'm willing to give up more. I just need to simplify my life. Little E's colic is just a stage along with her day/night confusion. It will pass.
Okay I've finished pumping. I pump for 15 minutes and this is all I ever get:
Now can you see why I'm frustrated? I take the fenugreek capsules 2 at a time 3 times a day as prescribed by my physician. I drink the milkmaid tea. I eat more than 2 of the lactation cookies a day, heck sometimes 4 of them a day or more and I wonder why I've gained weight back.
Folks if my doctor decides that the domperidone isn't going to help me I'm done. I won't beat my boobs up any longer trying to produce milk. I pump enough each day that the nipple hurt. I would post a photo of my nipples for all of you but I'm not going to flash my ta-tas to the world like it was Mardi Gras. You'll just have to take my word for it that my nipples are too big to nurse my baby, the areolas won't fit in her mouth with the big nipples and the nipples love to go flat quickly.
