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Not so much the baby but me. I'm the one crying though she is too. I think, but will see her Ped doc tomorrow, she has colic. I'm not crying over that. I have the baby blues. Rather normal.
Little E is fussing a lot at the same time of day. She curls up her body, screams, passes gas, cries some more and at times is inconsolable. Again rather normal from what I read.
I'm going to stop the milkmaid tea and watch my diet a little more closely. Though we are doing more formula than breastmilk, I'm up to pumping 5 times a day, it could very well be my milk causing her issues. However, it could be an allergy to her formula too as J's brother and I as well, not sure my genetics matter much with this as we used a donor egg, had milk allergy issues as infants. Again if that is the case then I'll have to change my diet and eliminate dairy. I'll find out more what the doctor suggest tomorrow.
It has been 6 days of colic like symptoms at basically the same time each day or rather evening and late night. How many of you out there experienced colic with your babies or yourself when you were a baby? My mom had to put me on a rice formula added to my bottle at three weeks of age because of my stomach issues.
Now back to the baby blues. I'm not going to go out and kill myself or anyone else for that matter. I can assure you all of that. I have had some rather disturbing thoughts that the world would be better off without me but I'll just call that self-pity because I feel so inadequate. Why do I feel like that? Well my nipples aren't appetizing to my daughter because they are too big. She'd rather J feed her than me. Though I have done a few, just a few, feedings with her when he was out of the house. Hey if she has no choice she'll take the bottle from anyone I figure. I'm still feeling really weak and having some bad pains in the ribs along my kidneys and along the incision too. I'll post a photo of what it looked like when the bandage came off and I saw the 19 staples.
While it does look better now it is still bruised, red, hot to the touch and oddly swollen on the right side. I don't have a fever so infection can be ruled out.
As for the rib pain along the back. When this pregnancy first started and they tested my urine for protein with the first of the 24 hour tests I came back with high numbers but that was before week 20. Then I developed pre-eclampsia. I was told I might need to see a nephrologist. Kidney issues run in my family. It doesn't matter how much water I drink I can still inherit what my dad has and what his grandmother died from. I'm hoping I won't but I'd like to get it looked at if the pain doesn't go away.
For those of you with endometriosis and have had a hysterectomy (just the uterus removed) can the endo pain return quickly? I'm asking this because I'm getting a lot of pain where the ovaries are located. I'd like to blame the pain on the surgery but it has been three weeks almost since I delivered and anything is possible with endometriosis I swear. I know that the ovaries are the culprits with endometriosis.
Oh and here is a recent picture of little E in J's arms: