11 Days Past IUI; Still Waiting

I've been keeping busy trying to ignore the stark white test each morning by making baby booties each day.  The above are now available for purchase in my shop.  I'm also making more solid color ones in newborn size to start with.  I didn't realize I was down to only 10 pairs in my shop this week.  Eek!  That isn't to say that I had a lot to start with but I realize that people like to have choices.

I'm also making the above in 3-6 months, 6-12 months and preemie so every one will have a chance to get the size they want and need.  Well those that want them that is.

My fatigue symptoms disappeared at 7 dpo.  I had  slight second line on 8 dpo and now nothing.  I'm guessing that maybe it was the left over from the trigger shot?  I'd like to think positive and really hope for that BFP on Tuesday but I'm a realist.  I know it won't always happen.  I also know that when I was pregnant with the twins that I never got a line on a hpt either.  The only time I have had lines is when I had the IVF and some left over hormones in my system from the IVF which helped the one natural pregnancy I did have.

I have been praying to God.  I keep hoping.  But truly I'm scared to have another failed cycle.  Another wasted amount of money that could be earning interest in the savings right now.

Even with the cost of two IVFs last year, we paid for the Jan one in Dec, we didn't get the tax credit.  J and I are just one of those couples that slip through the cracks.  We don't make enough for the big tax breaks and we make too much to get public assistance.  But we make just enough to pay out the for the highest tax bracket of what is it now? 27%?

Now that I hear on the news about the end of the year deadline for the taxes being changed up if the Prez doesn't get his peeps together.  I look forward to my meager tax refund each year.  Now it looks like I won't be getting that either.
Has anyone read this book?

Taxes Are Done

Last night J and I finally got our taxes filed.  I had all my infertility receipts in hand.  They photo copied them, calculated the percentage and well, nothing.  Even though we were well above the 7.5% or whatever it was we were not above the dollar amount.  So no savings there.

Still we are getting a refund.  All of which is now ear marked for the donor egg cycle when he gets back home.  I'm thinking that I should be able to save up enough of his measly pay to help with the rest of the money I need towards the donor egg cycle.

Its something.  But with budget cuts, even though J will be in a combat zone, he won't be getting combat pay.  Nope.  Our soldiers are again getting the royal treatment minus the vaseline.

As for pay raise this year I think it was noted that they would be getting a whopping 0.5% pay raise which amounts to about maybe another tax bracket so he'll never see it.

I'm not cranky or anything.

Pregnancy or PMS symptoms:

tired
cranky
sore breasts
nauseated

In a few more days I can test.  In a few more days I can call my RE doctor and plead for a CD21 progesterone test.  Like "Another Dreamer" said I could have a good embryo but a poorly working corpus luteum and that could mess it all up.  Probably what happened to my very first pregnancy too.

Money Makes Madness

Ever notice that money issues make people cranky?

I've known of more than one couple, J and I included in the distant past, who have had arguments over the bills.  I've known of couples that had such money troubles as to be the cause of their divorce.

Truly money is the root of all evil.  If we didn't have money though I'm sure we'd have something else used for exchange of goods and services.

More and more our government is asking for us to give up our income, savings, 401k, and other retirement programs because it cannot balance its own budget.  It wants what we have worked so hard to get.  So now our own country is going to bed hungry when it can find a bed to sleep in.

Last night I was watching the world news from two different channels.  Two times I saw a story about the poverty of America's children.  Okay we've known for quite a while that our children are suffering.   They are going without food and clothing and often without shelter too.

So why aren't we doing something about it?  Why do I see more ads for UNICEF, or Christian Children's Fund and so on where the money doesn't stay within our country but goes to other countries?

What happened to charity starts at home?

If we know we have a problem feeding, clothing, housing and getting medical for our own youth then why the heck are we farming out our tax dollars and spare change to feed other nations?

If we don't take care of our own American children we won't have a future.  A child that goes without proper nutrition won't grow in bone or brain.  We are in fact killing our progeny.

My thoughts now go to my readers.  If you were to see a child that was dirty, cold, tired, hungry, and in general going without would you stop to help out?  Or would you instead just give your money to a foreign country?

Yes, I'm angry.  I'm tired of the greedy government giving out our tax dollars to programs that don't have squat to do with our own country.

We need to rebuild America.  We need progress in the right direction.  We should get back to the basics and realize what we need and what we want then balance the needs against the wants. 

We need to take care of our own first.  No one should go to bed hungry unless they are trying to do so to lose weight.

Sorry about the rant.