Saturday, April 20, 2013

Guessing Game

ICLW starts tomorrow and I'm not sure that I'll be posting a blog tomorrow so this will have to do.  Hello to all my readers, first timers, and lurkers.

I'm guessing that I have about 18 more days until I do the transfer of the two 4AA blastocysts.

18 more days to try to lose the 7.2 pounds I deemed yesterday that would be necessary for my personal happiness.

Well I'm pleased to announce that this morning I lost another pound.  6.2 more pounds to go in 18 days.  This is going to be tough but if I just add in one more set of reps to each exercise I might be able to get more weight off next week.

I have to admit is is rather nice to see some of the paunch disappear.

As you ladies know, losing weight while on hormones isn't easy. 

Giving up chocolate has been a killer.  Yes, I gave up chocolate.  There isn't a little treat after each injection.  I just remind myself when the pain hits, and there has been a lot of cramping with the Alora patches, that I'm doing this for a damn good reason.

I'm getting vicious.  I really let into my husband this morning.  I've now lost control of my temper.  He knew this was going to happen at some point.  I said things that I should regret but I don't because they are my feelings.  I don't feel like what I'm going through is being appreciated by him.  He is so buried in his own work and studies that at times I think I'm nothing to him.  I know it isn't true and it is just the hormones.  I know that my husband does love me. He is just probably trying to stay out of my way so that he doesn't start an argument because he knows right now I'm really sensitive.  Inside the real me is being held hostage by the hormones.  I want to break out from this jail cell and be free but I know I just have to wait until the hormones parole me.

Hopefully I just had my last period for nine months.

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  1. Hoping so too.

    Good job on the weight loss! It really is hard, especially while on hormones and dealing with all this stuff. I think you're doing awesome though- keep it up!

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    1. Thanks. Right now I need positive feedback.

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  2. I agree that trying to lose weight on hormones is not easy but you can do it! :)

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    1. Sheer will power. Especially when I'm making a cake that I won't be eating...Just for my husband.

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  3. Not eating the cake shows huge restraint :) If I were trying to lose weight I would only make my husband things I hate. Lots and lots of liver and peas!

    Then again, if all I had in the house to eat was liver and peas I would lose weight pretty fast...

    Soon the estrogen will take over and you'll be happy again.

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    1. Honestly I could better handle the Lupron. The estrogen, within hours of taking it, was making me moody. I normally produce plenty on my own so this adding in more with the endometriosis is just killing me.

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  4. Hormones are evil!!! Just keep breathing and moving forward! You are doing great. 18 more days till transfer?? Well that is super exciting :)

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    1. I'm guessing on how many more days. It could be 25 more days for all I know. Just going by the adjusted calendar.

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  5. Congrats on the weight loss! I'm trying desperately to drop a few pounds, too, but I just can't bear to give up chocolate completely- you're a strong woman! Best of luck to you on your upcoming transfer... here's hoping for 9 months of moodiness to come... Hugs!

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  6. Congrats on your weight loss! I've been struggling to control my cravings, exercise more, and in general be healthier in the midst of infertility treatments. Now that we're on a break for a couple cycles, I'm hoping to make some progress. Good luck to you! I hope you reach your goal.

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    1. My craving are always worse when I'm stressed out...I'm such an emotional eater.

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  7. Okay, losing weight, giving up chocolate, AND aware that you're saying things you don't mean...all while dealing with raging hormones? In my book, you are a friggin' rock star!

    I'm sending out some vibes that that was indeed your last AF for 9 months.

    Thanks for visiting my blog...ICLW #34

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  8. Ugh, trying to be extra healthy and taking hormones at the same time -- that is HARD. But yes, sometimes it's been easier for me to give up treats completely than to tease myself with moderation. It sounds like what you're doing is working -- good for you!

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    1. It was so hard yesterday. I made my husband a cake that he'd been wanting for a while and No, I didn't eat any. Willpower!

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  9. Wow, congrats on the weight loss. You are so motivating.
    So hoping this transfer works for you. I know all about the moodiness that hormones bring.

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  10. Popping in for ICLW. Congrats on the weight loss progress. Giving up chocolate sounds impossible, but I hope it's all worth it in the end. Fingers and toes are crossed for you!

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    1. The first few days without chocolate caused major headaches.

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  11. fingers crossed for you - good job with the weight!

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  12. Hi from ICLW. Thanks for stopping by. Sounds like you are going great with the weight loss. Losing weight while cycling is ambitious- I'm impressed!

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    1. Darn near impossible some days to stick to my regime but I'm trying.

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  13. Hugs and Baby dust to you. I'm here from ICLW and I hope that you have a really successful transfer. Iknow enough about frozen embryos to know that you've got some great ones about to go in. Hopefully you get a whole new set of hormone problems soon.

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  14. Awesome job with the weight loss! Hope it goes well!

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    1. Hoping I can get more off. So far not so good.

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  15. Thank you for stopping by my blog! (#68 ICLW) I am wishing you all the best for your upcoming cycle. I hope this is your last period for 9 months, too!

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  16. Good luck for your procedure :)

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  17. Those hormones are evil, aren't they? Hoping this is it for you!

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    1. I keep reminding myself why I'm doing this to my body.

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