Friday, February 3, 2012
Still Have Some Hope
Yesterday I have to admit I let the test results get to me. I shouldn't have but I did. I know its still early and this morning's two tests were no different either. It seems as though my hormones peak in the later afternoon early evening time frame, just before I take my last Endometrin of the day. I consistently take my Endometrin at 0400 hrs, 1200 hrs and 2000 hrs, 8 hours apart to keep the hormone in my system at its peak.
By late in the afternoon I was cramping again, weepy, cranky, full of snot in the nose and vaginal area, and had really sore breasts. Again this morning very little to no symptoms and my breast which are slightly sore are back to the normal size.
According the to the test strip site for the W.ondfo's I'm currently using I'm only going to get my really strong positive line on Sunday. Even today I'd only have a 33.5% chance of seeing a faint positive. Count Down To Pregnancy Test
But with the cramps last night came a little bit of disturbing color. I passed a bit of brown no bigger than my pinky nail, which is cut short because it broke off the other day. Nothing to be seen for residue on the endometrin stick after inserting either. Nothing today for color. But when the cramps started yesterday I put my feet up and they subsided until I stood up again.
Either AF will be here in a few days or Hope is snuggling in for a long growth spurt. I'm really praying its the later because I don't think I could take another miscarriage.
J has been told by me that I'm now not going to lift a finger until I get the Beta results. Last night was the last night I'm cooking dinner as it was during the finalizing of making said dinner that the cramps were the worst. He is under enough stress and I don't want to add to it but I too need to count right now.
J wasn't put on the list for this month's promotion board since he didn't tell them he wanted to go nor remind them. Its called an ARMY OF ONE for a darn good reason. When you enlist you are on your own when trying to get a thing done including getting promoted. No one wants to stick their neck out for you now. Its a shame too, it wasn't like that in my Dad's day.
So yes, I'm primarily on bed rest. I was told by the RE staff to take it easy, and if I was in pain to stop what I was doing and go put my feet up. I hate being high risk but if I get a baby out of this its worth it.