Sunday, February 5, 2012

Still Not Testing

In keeping with my PUPO I'm not testing again today.  Nope I'm taking the rest of this off.  I still can't hold my pee for more than 2 hours and almost thought I'd wet myself today in church I had to pee so bad.

I'm not going to test at all.  I'm going to wait for the beta result.  I may go batty tomorrow waiting for the phone to ring with the results but either way I'll share the news with all of you.

Still no AF signs.  I still get slight headaches daily.  I'm still forgetful.  I still have a bit of constipation that is getting to be annoying.  I guess I'll have to eat even more fruit than I already do since if I ingest milk products and whole grains it goes the opposite way I don't want to get sick.  No its not just the lactose its the whey protein.  I've always had that allergy.

I actually felt like dressing up a bit more today for church and so J decided to put on dress pants and a nice shirt too.  No tie.  He hates wearing a tie unless its for his uniform.  I thought the cute Garfield tie would look nice today but no go there.  Oh he has plenty of ties from his days of office work as an engineer but now that he doesn't have to wear one often he prefers not to.  I suppose I could have pressured him to wear one but I'd rather not wear a tie either as I don't much like turtlenecks and anything strangulating my neck.

So here I sit.  No odd colorations are showing up on the Endometrin applicators so I guess that means no AF.  Yes, I'm really afraid that tomorrow I'll find out that I lost Hope.  I'd rather not think that, see the results or hear them and go on my blissfull way of ignorance.  But I have to face the facts when presented.

I do hope that I am still pregnant and that my beta is a good number tomorrow.  Its almost as if I'm gambling but in a way I am.  I'm fighting the odds associated with infertility.

Good luck to everyone that is trying to conceive this month.  I hope all of us get our dream's fulfilled.


18 comments:

  1. Lots of love to you and Hope. I will be anxiously awaiting your news tomorrow! Thinking of you!

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    1. I'll be hovering over the phone while I wait tomorrow for the call.

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  2. hoping beta day is amazing!! i will be thinking, hoping and praying for you!
    xoxo

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    1. Either way Jes, I think I'm due for a good cry. Its been a day since I've cried so I'm overdue with these hormones.

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  3. Hang in there Rebecca. I'm still holding onto hope for great news tomorrow! In the meantime, sending you peace and love.

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    1. If I don't get good news I will still share it because you and everyone else has been so supportive of me.

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  4. Oh my goodness come on great beta. Please, please, please!

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    1. I just hope I get a full number this time. Last IVF I got a decimal point before the first number it was so low.

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  5. Just hang in there. I'll be holding my breath waiting along with you.

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    1. In less than 24 hours I should know. The lab opens at 7am and my butt will be there pulling a number to get my blood drawn.

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  6. I am going to do the same thing - just enjoy being pregnant as long as I possibly can! Good luck tomorrow!

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    1. Orange I wish I had done that to begin with. The three days I did test, first one was positive and the rest I couldn't hold my pee long enough for were torture. It really is best to wait for beta day. Enjoy being pregnant.

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  7. Wishing you lots and lots of luck, Rebecca. I can totally understand how you feel today. I will thinking of you and Hope and anxiously awaiting to hear. Stay positive.

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    1. My body feels like an alien being has taken over right now. It just so weird waiting for an answer. Is my mind messing with me or am I actually pregnant. I went to eat a salt and vinegar chip of which I love it was way too sour and salty. I've eaten from the same bag over the past week. Odd. See my mind is messing with my taste-buds now.

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  8. Good luck! Oh, hoping so badly. Positive sticky happy beta vibes for tomorrow!

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  9. I will still be praying for you, that Hope will be yours. I did have to laugh about J not wanting to wear a tie. Ken won't wear one either. I told him we deal with underwire bras, support hose, corsets/girdles, waxing, and tweezing just for them so he could wear a tie occasionally. It didn't work. I'm looking forward to your post tomorrow and hope for good news.

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