Friday, February 3, 2012

Still Have Some Hope

I ate to my heart's content yesterday and weighed myself this morning.  I weigh myself every morning especially since my RE doctor told me I should since I bloat easily.  I lost 0.8 lbs and I pigged out and ate of the pig too.  I made Jaeger Schnitzel last night.

Yesterday I have to admit I let the test results get to me.  I shouldn't have but I did.  I know its still early and this morning's two tests were no different either.  It seems as though my hormones peak in the later afternoon early evening time frame, just before I take my last Endometrin of the day.  I consistently take my Endometrin at 0400 hrs, 1200 hrs and 2000 hrs, 8 hours apart to keep the hormone in my system at its peak.

By late in the afternoon I was cramping again, weepy, cranky, full of snot in the nose and vaginal area, and had really sore breasts.  Again this morning very little to no symptoms and my breast which are slightly sore are back to the normal size.

According the to the test strip site for the W.ondfo's I'm currently using I'm only going to get my really strong positive line on Sunday.  Even today I'd only have a 33.5% chance of seeing a faint positive.  Count Down To Pregnancy Test

But with the cramps last night came a little bit of disturbing color.  I passed a bit of brown no bigger than my pinky nail, which is cut short because it broke off the other day.  Nothing to be seen for residue on the endometrin stick after inserting either.  Nothing today for color.  But when the cramps started yesterday I put my feet up and they subsided until I stood up again.

Either AF will be here in a few days or Hope is snuggling in for a long growth spurt.  I'm really praying its the later because I don't think I could take another miscarriage.

J has been told by me that I'm now not going to lift a finger until I get the Beta results.  Last night was the last night I'm cooking dinner as it was during the finalizing of making said dinner that the cramps were the worst.  He is under enough stress and I don't want to add to it but I too need to count right now. 

J wasn't put on the list for this month's promotion board since he didn't tell them he wanted to go nor remind them.  Its called an ARMY OF ONE for a darn good reason.  When you enlist you are on your own when trying to get a thing done including getting promoted.  No one wants to stick their neck out for you now.  Its a shame too, it wasn't like that in my Dad's day.

So yes, I'm primarily on bed rest.  I was told by the RE staff to take it easy, and  if I was in pain to stop what I was doing and go put my feet up.  I hate being high risk but if I get a baby out of this its worth it.

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  1. High risk isn't so bad. It's a lot of work, but it can be done...says the chick who barely made it out of her last pregnancy alive. Thinking of you constantly.

    Sending hugs and love!

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    1. I'm just scare Nicki, I've lost three pregnancies, two last year. If I lose this one I don't know if I'll be able to make it out of the pit of darkness.

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  2. I agree I think its too early to test. Plus you do need pretty concentrated sample which I doubt you are getting given you said that the Endometrin is making you go a lot.

    Hang in there...it is not over.

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    1. The longest I could hold my urine through the night was 2 hours 56 minutes. Yes I timed it by remembering what it said on the clock. I need four hours to get enough concentration of the HCG. This is so annoying.

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  3. I think being off your feet, though hard, is a good decision. I still have everything crossed and am hoping for good news very soon.

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    1. I know being off my feet is the best thing it just makes my back pain worse so I get more cranky. Poor J, maybe he should wear extra padding right now in case I get in the mood to throw stuff. I haven't yet but it might reach that point.

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  4. Well those sound like promising symptons to me. I really really wish that "Hope" is snuggling in for the long haul.

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    1. Me too Toni. I'm hoping that your IVF gives you lots of embabies. Good luck. I'll be reading your blog and hoping.

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  5. I always get painful AF like cramps in early pregnancy. I hope that these cramps are a good sign and not a bad one. I've got everything crossed for you! Please stick around hope! :)

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    1. Well because I'm paranoid I called the RE nurse and she noted my symptoms told me to put my feet up and not to worry about the weight loss as its probably just water weight. I'm so hormonal I was crying with the good news she gave me that all seems to be well. I even apologized for being so hormonal.

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  6. Definitely take it easy :) Hoping that Hope is settling in- keeping my fingers crossed!

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  7. Thinking of you, and hoping monday comes around quickly and with good news!

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