Saturday, February 4, 2012

Taking A Day Off

I decided I'd had enough of testing and worrying.  I'm not testing today.  Sure I could change brands of the test strips as I have another brand and two digital sticks too but I'm not doing any testing.  Why?  Because I can't hold my pee long enough!

I might break down tomorrow and ruin my morning before church to take a digital.  But I might decide to not take one at all.

Today I'll just take care of my needs and I might do some grocery shopping later if I feel up to it.

Symptoms for today so far:
  • Breast tenderness
  • Weight gain.  I gained back 0.6 lbs of the 0.8 I lost the day before.
  • Nausea
  • Slight headache
  • Mild back ache
  • plenty of mucus up and down.  I swear my nose is going to go raw here soon from blowing it.
  • my size 14 pants are now uncomfortable to wear.  That blows!
  • Bit of constipation but that goes hand in hand with my IBS.  I'll just make sure to keep eating my figs each day and I should be fine.
But, all in all, any of those symptoms could be pointing to a pending new cycle.  No spotting since that tiny bit two days ago.  No bleeding or smell of blood (yes I'm one of those that can smell a trace of when its going to start).

Other than J doing the laundry and shrinking a pair of my smaller sized 16 jeans in the dryer this week, I told him they go on the drying rack not in the dryer, I have nothing really to complain about.  Except the dreams.

Oh boy the dreams are getting weird.  I can remember bits and pieces of the ones I had last night and yesterday too.  This morning I woke up from a dog dream.  I was at my parents' house before the remodeling they did in the 70's and there were dogs everywhere.  Including cartoon dogs.  I was the only one that could see them and they were tripping other people up.  It was a humorous dream.  Another dream I had was that a doctor told me I was pregnant.  That was always nice to have for a dream.  Lets just hope that one turns out to be true.

J is taking on the responsibilities slowly.  I think slow is good.  We still aren't sure if he is going to be one of the soldiers that will deploy soon.  I'm hoping not but there is always that chance, especially when they announced at a meeting last month that they are sending the rest of the brigade.  I know when they leave but I'm not sure he is going to be on the list.  Not knowing and thinking about it will drive me batty.  I've got other things to think of right now, like staying pregnant and getting a good beta number on Monday.


  1. Rest easy friend and try to think soothing calming thoughts! Ha!
    I have been thinking about you and hope to hear good news on Monday! Fingers crossed!
    I hope your husband doesn't get deployed either!

    1. If he gets deployed again I'm going to go crazy.

  2. Your symptoms sound very promising, particulaty the runny nose which is very common in early pregnancy.

    I think given its Sat you should just wait for another 48 hrs and get the beta. No need to torture youself holing pee in :-)

    I really doubt the validity of many of the pee sticks. I bought a bunch from the dollar store having read great reviews. I peed on it the morning after my HCG shot of 10,000 iu and it showed BFN - stark white! Can you believe that -- the digital showed within secs as I would expect given the amount of HCG I had injected. Oh, I was checking if I had injected my self properly.

    So, just relax. Enjoy the pampering. Thinking of you and sending good vibes.

    1. I have two digital tests and I think I might use one of those tomorrow if I feel like testing early. Our clinic, after asking the RE nurse yesterday, said that last IVF cycle they decided to move everyone's beta testing date up by one day to only 14 days. I was wondering why it was the slated for the 6th and not the 7th. But that's okay.

      I'm kind of afraid to think that I might be pregnant and have it turn out to be negative but I think all of us infertiles are afraid to hope for the good at times.

      For now I'm still PUPO!

  3. Glad you're taking the day off from testing. But hoping still for very good news on Monday!

    1. Me Too Cristy, I'm nervous about Monday.

  4. Definitely relax as much as possible this weekend. Good for you on not testing today, it is less stressful. Keeping fingers cross ed that your dh can stay out four a bit and no deployment.

    1. I'm hoping that he won't have to go but I have to realistic. When they say, "the rest of the brigade" it means the rest of them. If some how he can stay back, I mean I am high risk, then it would be wonderful. I've already had a day of bed rest. I can just see how this is going to go already. He'll deploy and come home to a dead wife, not that I'd off myself, but I'd starve to death on bed rest if I'm actually stuck to the damn bed which some bed rest can be.

  5. I am glad you are taking a break. Hoping and praying so hard that Hope is snuggling in. I hope J doesn't have to go!

    1. I'm giving up on testing until the Beta.


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