Maybe I did too much yesterday. I know I went to bed in pain from the ultrasound and walk home from the hospital.
Today I'm doing housework.
Maybe the pain is making me depressed? If so its time to count my blessings once again.
1) I have a house. Its rented but I have a house. Not an apartment. I don't share walls with another tenant and I have a yard in which I can grow plants.
2) I have a husband that loves me. He may be selfish and immature but he does love me. He won't cheat on me.....I hope.
3) I have food to eat, even if I'm too tired to prepare said food today.
4) I have free time each and every day to complain whereas others do not. I'm not working myself to death.
5) I'm childless. WHAT! Is that truly a blessing? Well some days when I'm sick it is. When I want to just up and go somewhere I don't have to figure out travel with a child. I'd like to have that particular challenge some day. Unlike traveling with a pet, children are accepted at motel chains without having to pay an extra fee for possible damage. Though I swear I've met some kids that should have pet deposits imposed on them as well.
6) I'm pet free. I can pick up and go when I want, where I want. Well sort of. I have my bad fibromyalgia/endometriosis/meniere's days....oh heck you all know I have a lot of medical conditions by now.
7) I have my health. Not joking. I do have my health. I'm not on death's door step though I feel like it today.
8) I have money in the bank though the interest rates are so low these days I might as well stuff it in a mattress.
9) My debts are all paid off. Except for the usual utility bills that come in every month along with the cable bill.
10) I have a choice. I have a plan. Its a blessing to know that I have still have options in my geriatric fertility years. If all goes well I'll be pregnant by early next year. I'm not putting all my eggs in one basket as they won't be my eggs will they?
11) I have friends. They may come and go but I have my friendships.
So with all of the above said, sorry if it seems like I'm still a tad blue, but I'm just worn out. I can't get out of my own way today. Now if only I could find a gluten free, tasty, soy-free Chinese place that delivered I'd be set today.
This is a great list. And I hope for nothing but good news very soon with this upcoming round of treatment.
ReplyDeleteNow if we could just find you said Chinese restaurant....
Maybe I'm hoping too much for a Chinese restaurant and the cyst to go away.
DeleteOh I hear ya lady. Completely. Hugs to you xoxo
ReplyDeleteNow if only my body would cooperate with me for oh say 9 months!
DeleteI like your attitude! Reading your blessings helped me recognize my own. :)
ReplyDeleteEvery so often I have to count them lest I forget them and take advantage of what I have.
DeleteYou sound worn out, and I get that (*hugs*) I hope you feel better soon. Living with chronic pain is debilitating, it really takes a toll on a person.
ReplyDeleteThat it does!
DeleteI read several blogs. Yours is the second today that counted blessings!! And like the first ( www.lifeinthewhitehouse.com ) I found it was so refreshing.
ReplyDeleteI hope counting your blessings uplifted you as much as it did me :D
So sorry that you are in pain
Its always nice to recount why I'm thankful even in the darkest moments.
DeleteWay to find the bright side. Proud of you. I know it isn't easy. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteI have it easy compared to most.
DeleteI hope you're feeling a bit better. If it's sunny then I find sitting out and reading a book usually cheers me up a little.
ReplyDeleteI've been baking for the past two days to keep me cheery.
DeleteI love your list! Your are so blessed. I'm glad you are looking at all the good even when you don't feel well. Hope you feel better soon!
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