Some good news to share with all of you. My Tens Unit arrived via UPS yesterday. However, according to the new booklet of updated information they included with it this time I can't use it on the menstruating uterus or the pregnant uterus. My RE was wrong about that one. But I can use it on my back and limbs if I have pain there during those particular life events.
More good news to blog about; my bleeding is slowing down finally! I might just be able to enjoy myself at the marriage retreat this weekend rather than being face down on the conference table sucking up the coldness of the table. Bit of bad though, revving up for ovulation and that pain has already started on the right side. If only the eggs I produced were good quality I'd not complain about the pain. Well maybe I would complain but not as much.
Even better news. Eight more days until the appointment at PNW. I'm excited. I have the donor egg profile numbers written down and will put them in my calendar book. I'm really hoping to get my first choice as she has similar features and likes that I do along with the same blood type. However, I do have five other donor egg profiles picked out. J and I did take our time picking out who we'd like to be the genetic donor. Not sure just how much it matters but two of the donors, not high on the list we have, do have a different blood type from me but the same RH factor.
This week I'm going over to Madigan and speak face-to-face with the IVF/donor egg Nurse coordinator and bring along the forms that need to be faxed. I want to make sure that everything is in its proper place before we get to the donor egg clinic.
I'm very excited. I'm hopeful. The eggs we'll be getting don't have endometriosis so we have a higher chance of the pregnancy working. I can get pregnant with my own eggs but it just doesn't want to be a viable pregnancy.
If this works, scary thought, J and I will have more hurdles in the future to cross. But they are ones I'm more than willing to jump. First one will be in telling family. How much do we tell them? Some of the family aren't all that understanding which is too bad really.
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Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Saturday, February 16, 2013
Still Cramping and Spotting
So since today is CD 14 I've most likely ovulated by now.
I'm still cramping and I'm still spotting.
Breasts have been bothersome since before the SIS but can be explained away with the progesterone level being 13.13 on CD 12.
I'm so tired.
Do I think I have a chance? Not really given my track record.
Am I hoping? You bet I am. But considering how old I am I think if I did end up pregnant I'd be scared because of all the things that could go wrong with old eggs. We all know that I had planned on going to donor eggs and have been talking about it since last Autumn.
Now it is just a wait and see.
10 more days till AF or Beta.
I'm still cramping and I'm still spotting.
Breasts have been bothersome since before the SIS but can be explained away with the progesterone level being 13.13 on CD 12.
I'm so tired.
Do I think I have a chance? Not really given my track record.
Am I hoping? You bet I am. But considering how old I am I think if I did end up pregnant I'd be scared because of all the things that could go wrong with old eggs. We all know that I had planned on going to donor eggs and have been talking about it since last Autumn.
Now it is just a wait and see.
10 more days till AF or Beta.
Monday, February 11, 2013
To Pee or Not To Pee
So since this is my last cycle peeing on opks I decided to start early with them.
CD 6 neg. Didn't think it would be otherwise.
CD 7 forgot to pee on stick
CD 8 WTF? POSITIVE. Test line darker than control line. Lots of pain on right side all day.
CD 9 Today. Positive with test line being as dark as control line but not as dark as test line yesterday.
Tons of EWCM.
No BD. J had his SA today. Most likely cycle will be a bust.
Had 9 blood tests done today in preparation for Egg Donation Cycle.
Will have results of HCG test in about an hour. Obviously it will be negative.
Tomorrow J does the rest of his testing, blood work presumably. I have my mammogram, PAP and SIS tomorrow afternoon. We'll find out a few more of the test results in office if we are lucky.
So that is where I stand or sit. Tomorrow I might pee on another stick to see if the lines are still just as dark. Remember I'm known for producing more than one follicle on an unmedicated cycle. My ovaries also refuse to release them all at once too, even with the aid of hormones!
CD 6 neg. Didn't think it would be otherwise.
CD 7 forgot to pee on stick
CD 8 WTF? POSITIVE. Test line darker than control line. Lots of pain on right side all day.
CD 9 Today. Positive with test line being as dark as control line but not as dark as test line yesterday.
Tons of EWCM.
No BD. J had his SA today. Most likely cycle will be a bust.
Had 9 blood tests done today in preparation for Egg Donation Cycle.
Will have results of HCG test in about an hour. Obviously it will be negative.
Tomorrow J does the rest of his testing, blood work presumably. I have my mammogram, PAP and SIS tomorrow afternoon. We'll find out a few more of the test results in office if we are lucky.
So that is where I stand or sit. Tomorrow I might pee on another stick to see if the lines are still just as dark. Remember I'm known for producing more than one follicle on an unmedicated cycle. My ovaries also refuse to release them all at once too, even with the aid of hormones!
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Back to the Diet
So I failed for the last three weeks. I've had a bit of stress and fell into the chocolate cravings. I think it is understandable considering the chemical pregnancy I had. Yes, most of the weight I gained back I did so last week wallowing in self-pity.
Today I went back to my diet of calorie counting. It isn't so bad. I finally recalled the foods I was eating back in 2011 that helped me stay full and lose weight.
Fage yogurt with honey added
Unsalted nuts
Diluted Tart Cherry Juice
Low calorie bread for sandwiches
Homemade mini pizzas
Hot cocoa in the evening to stave off my late night chocolate cravings
Other than the above I carefully measure and calculate what I can eat. Well yes I do calculate the calories per serving of the above foods too but I think you understand what I'm getting at.
I'm hoping to have back off the almost 6 pounds I put back on recently and of course take off at least 20 more before the donor egg cycle has become a FET.
I've got to stick with this. I'm a 34 BMI and though that number is within guidelines it isn't a healthy BMI. I need to get back to my 30 BMI and under to make myself happier. I need to feel good about how I look and know that I'll have a better chance at a healthier pregnancy.
I can do this. All I ask of my readers is to send me support often to stay the path even when things don't go as I planned. I'm an emotional eater.
Today I went back to my diet of calorie counting. It isn't so bad. I finally recalled the foods I was eating back in 2011 that helped me stay full and lose weight.
Fage yogurt with honey added
Unsalted nuts
Diluted Tart Cherry Juice
Low calorie bread for sandwiches
Homemade mini pizzas
Hot cocoa in the evening to stave off my late night chocolate cravings
Other than the above I carefully measure and calculate what I can eat. Well yes I do calculate the calories per serving of the above foods too but I think you understand what I'm getting at.
I'm hoping to have back off the almost 6 pounds I put back on recently and of course take off at least 20 more before the donor egg cycle has become a FET.
I've got to stick with this. I'm a 34 BMI and though that number is within guidelines it isn't a healthy BMI. I need to get back to my 30 BMI and under to make myself happier. I need to feel good about how I look and know that I'll have a better chance at a healthier pregnancy.
I can do this. All I ask of my readers is to send me support often to stay the path even when things don't go as I planned. I'm an emotional eater.
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
Barriers
Well I thought everything was booked for the labs, and tests but I thought wrong.
Today I called my RE office to make sure that J's labs were also to be on the same day and that I have my mammogram booked as well. J's labs, because I just requested them, will be done the same day.
However, the mammogram cannot be booked by the RE office or OB/GYN. Really? My PCM has to book it. What!
Yeah, the man that knows so little about my woman bits gets to book my mammogram. I called up his office and requested to speak with a nurse about the issue. She took the message and will speak with my PCM. I really hope he understands that I need to get this done. This is the same man that denied me the pulmonary specialist even though I'm supposed to see one yearly. Same man that decided my lack of pigment on my neck was a fungus and prescribed me a shampoo for it. I told him it wasn't a fungus and I'm right. I did ask for a referral to see the dermatologist since I've had blistering sunburns on my face and skin cancer runs rampant in my family. Of course he denied me the dermatologist.
I can only hope that the nurse can convince the man that I need the mammogram done soon. I have to have it for the appointment or at least booked. I haven't had one in almost two years because TriCare doesn't allow PAP smears and mammograms for those over 40 years of age but every two years unless there is a darn good reason why you should have one.
Hopefully the nurse will be able to call me back today with some good information. Maybe even be willing to book an appointment that will work with my schedule too? I can hope.
Today I called my RE office to make sure that J's labs were also to be on the same day and that I have my mammogram booked as well. J's labs, because I just requested them, will be done the same day.
However, the mammogram cannot be booked by the RE office or OB/GYN. Really? My PCM has to book it. What!
Yeah, the man that knows so little about my woman bits gets to book my mammogram. I called up his office and requested to speak with a nurse about the issue. She took the message and will speak with my PCM. I really hope he understands that I need to get this done. This is the same man that denied me the pulmonary specialist even though I'm supposed to see one yearly. Same man that decided my lack of pigment on my neck was a fungus and prescribed me a shampoo for it. I told him it wasn't a fungus and I'm right. I did ask for a referral to see the dermatologist since I've had blistering sunburns on my face and skin cancer runs rampant in my family. Of course he denied me the dermatologist.
I can only hope that the nurse can convince the man that I need the mammogram done soon. I have to have it for the appointment or at least booked. I haven't had one in almost two years because TriCare doesn't allow PAP smears and mammograms for those over 40 years of age but every two years unless there is a darn good reason why you should have one.
Hopefully the nurse will be able to call me back today with some good information. Maybe even be willing to book an appointment that will work with my schedule too? I can hope.
Monday, February 4, 2013
Moving Forward
Not sure if J and I will do an IUI this new cycle but today I did start the online paperwork for the donor eggs.
My SIS and PAP are scheduled for the 12th of Feb. Bloodwork is the day before.
If all goes well I'll have nearly everything complete before the March 6th appointment.
My SIS and PAP are scheduled for the 12th of Feb. Bloodwork is the day before.
If all goes well I'll have nearly everything complete before the March 6th appointment.
Sunday, February 3, 2013
24 Hours Makes A Big Difference
I woke up in pain. A lot of pain. Pain in my pelvis. I knew without a doubt that I had just lost this pregnancy too.
Walking slowly into the bathroom I took the HPT and it was negative. Yesterday's joy was gone.
I kind of knew the positive result wouldn't be long lived. The nightmares had started before I woke up in pain. Before my period starts I always get nightmares. The PTSD nightmares.
Sure enough I'm bleeding. It is a full bleed too.
I guess waking up to a dislocated finger on Friday morning wasn't enough for me to have over a weekend. I have no clue just how I dislocated the finger but with hypermobile joints, fibromyalgia and a TBI it isn't likely that I would remember how I did the event that left my finger in pain. I taped the ring finger on the right hand to the middle finger next to it. I've done this before. If the pain and swelling aren't less by tomorrow I'll call my PCM. Right now to let the middle finger not be so stiff I have it freed from the tape.
The sinus infection is raging enough that I've woken up with broken capillaries on my left facial cheek, pain in the maxillary sinuses now too. It was just located to the Ethimoid ,Sphenoid, and Frontal sinuses. I guess the Maxillary sinuses got jealous and wanted in on the game?
Suffice it to say I ache. I'm bleeding from my nose and vagina. Not sure which end needs the feminine product more. (trying for a little humor)
I'm not going to dwell on the chemical pregnancy or the horrible pain of this miscarriage either. I have endometriosis and I really didn't expect it to be much different because it does affect my egg quality. J and I will do one more natural cycle with some hope since we have time before we go on to the donor egg appointment in March. Really what is $200 for an IUI when we will be spending just under $19,000.00 for the donor eggs not including the medicine?
I have yet to read or post the comments from everyone from yesterday. I'll get to that next. For now housework calls. I'll work through this pain like I normally do. Hey, I was scrubbing the utility room floor on Friday with a scrub brush on my knees with my finger disjointed. I think I can take the pelvic pain.
P.S.
Sorry to anyone that I haven't been commenting on your blogs as often this past week. My wireless router had issues and had to be removed from the computer. Time to go buy a new one.
Walking slowly into the bathroom I took the HPT and it was negative. Yesterday's joy was gone.
I kind of knew the positive result wouldn't be long lived. The nightmares had started before I woke up in pain. Before my period starts I always get nightmares. The PTSD nightmares.
Sure enough I'm bleeding. It is a full bleed too.
I guess waking up to a dislocated finger on Friday morning wasn't enough for me to have over a weekend. I have no clue just how I dislocated the finger but with hypermobile joints, fibromyalgia and a TBI it isn't likely that I would remember how I did the event that left my finger in pain. I taped the ring finger on the right hand to the middle finger next to it. I've done this before. If the pain and swelling aren't less by tomorrow I'll call my PCM. Right now to let the middle finger not be so stiff I have it freed from the tape.
The sinus infection is raging enough that I've woken up with broken capillaries on my left facial cheek, pain in the maxillary sinuses now too. It was just located to the Ethimoid ,Sphenoid, and Frontal sinuses. I guess the Maxillary sinuses got jealous and wanted in on the game?
Suffice it to say I ache. I'm bleeding from my nose and vagina. Not sure which end needs the feminine product more. (trying for a little humor)
I'm not going to dwell on the chemical pregnancy or the horrible pain of this miscarriage either. I have endometriosis and I really didn't expect it to be much different because it does affect my egg quality. J and I will do one more natural cycle with some hope since we have time before we go on to the donor egg appointment in March. Really what is $200 for an IUI when we will be spending just under $19,000.00 for the donor eggs not including the medicine?
I have yet to read or post the comments from everyone from yesterday. I'll get to that next. For now housework calls. I'll work through this pain like I normally do. Hey, I was scrubbing the utility room floor on Friday with a scrub brush on my knees with my finger disjointed. I think I can take the pelvic pain.
P.S.
Sorry to anyone that I haven't been commenting on your blogs as often this past week. My wireless router had issues and had to be removed from the computer. Time to go buy a new one.
Friday, February 1, 2013
A Big No
My doctor just called. He said no to the femera.
Reasons why:
My AMH 1.5 years ago was .6
I develop ovarian cysts too easily from being stimulated by hormones.
It takes 180 days for Femera to make any bit of difference in ova quality.
I don't have enough time so no Femara for me. I do ovulate every cycle but I have crappy eggs. Still I tried to explain to the doctor that for me it is implantation issues. I told him I realize that the mitochondria is probably bad and that might have something to do with the implantation along with the endometriosis. Doctor did say that his team was really worried about me last year when they got inside me and found what they did find. Oh well. That was then, this is now.
We joked about twins on my side of the family but the doctor did state he would be happy if I just had one baby at a time considering the health risks. I realize that I have a 50% chance of making it out alive to delivery. I know that many of you probably didn't realize the risk I'm putting myself at. But J and I realize it. 50% looks pretty good to me.
Maybe the SIS will reveal something this time? Last time it showed I had another endometrioma. Maybe I will get an all clear.
J and I are both disappointed. He too wanted us to have a fully genetic child.
Tomorrow is 15 DPO. I'm still only spotting off and on. I'll have been off progesterone for three days by then. Doctor wanted to know why I took myself off of it. I told him that I told the nurse because I had started to spot on 12 DPO. He said take a HPT tomorrow because it is possible I might be pregnant, though slim by what he just said about all issues with me.
Found out today that a long time friend of mine, I called her, had a partial hysterectomy this week. I've known her since we were both 18. She has no children. I can't help but think that I'm next. Last year they wanted to take my ovaries out because I get cysts too often.
Sorry if this post seems gloomy. I'm sick with a nasty sinus infection and was just told No for stims. I'm afraid I'll be told no when it comes to the donor eggs. And yet I'm also afraid they might just say yes and it will work too. What would I do then? I'm so used to failing with reproduction.
Reasons why:
My AMH 1.5 years ago was .6
I develop ovarian cysts too easily from being stimulated by hormones.
It takes 180 days for Femera to make any bit of difference in ova quality.
I don't have enough time so no Femara for me. I do ovulate every cycle but I have crappy eggs. Still I tried to explain to the doctor that for me it is implantation issues. I told him I realize that the mitochondria is probably bad and that might have something to do with the implantation along with the endometriosis. Doctor did say that his team was really worried about me last year when they got inside me and found what they did find. Oh well. That was then, this is now.
We joked about twins on my side of the family but the doctor did state he would be happy if I just had one baby at a time considering the health risks. I realize that I have a 50% chance of making it out alive to delivery. I know that many of you probably didn't realize the risk I'm putting myself at. But J and I realize it. 50% looks pretty good to me.
Maybe the SIS will reveal something this time? Last time it showed I had another endometrioma. Maybe I will get an all clear.
J and I are both disappointed. He too wanted us to have a fully genetic child.
Tomorrow is 15 DPO. I'm still only spotting off and on. I'll have been off progesterone for three days by then. Doctor wanted to know why I took myself off of it. I told him that I told the nurse because I had started to spot on 12 DPO. He said take a HPT tomorrow because it is possible I might be pregnant, though slim by what he just said about all issues with me.
Found out today that a long time friend of mine, I called her, had a partial hysterectomy this week. I've known her since we were both 18. She has no children. I can't help but think that I'm next. Last year they wanted to take my ovaries out because I get cysts too often.
Sorry if this post seems gloomy. I'm sick with a nasty sinus infection and was just told No for stims. I'm afraid I'll be told no when it comes to the donor eggs. And yet I'm also afraid they might just say yes and it will work too. What would I do then? I'm so used to failing with reproduction.
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Changes
Since CD 1 is right around the corner, my FRER was negative again this AM, I'm going to get a jump start on eating a bit healthier. This morning for breakfast I'm having a smoothie and a nut bar.
Wheat Grass Smoothie
1 scoop of wheat grass
1/4 cup of pineapple juice
1 pineapple ring
1/4 of frozen raspberries
1/4 cup of flaked coconut
1/2 cup more of less of water
Kind of looks like chocolate when mixed up and it didn't need a sweetener.
I did gain 3 pound from the Endometrin during my two week wait but have thus far lost one pound.
I'll also be adding in DHEA 75 mg daily to my vitamins. Most of the vitamins I was taking I've let run out. I really got tired of being on so many of them.
Today the RE IVF/Donor egg coordinator nurse at my clinic called me. She said that Lt.Col.B. will be calling me later today to discuss my wanting to use femera. I'm guessing he is going to tell me no. But I just found out that our move to Ft. Stewart has been delayed by two months. So maybe with this new information he'll be more on my side since I have a bit of extra time and less rushing on the DE. Oh I'm still going through with the donor eggs. I have my appointment set for March 6th.
Called my PCM this morning. I have now for a week had green and bloody mucus discharge for a week. Time to beg the PCM for help. I just got done with a sinus infection treatment a few weeks ago. I'm guessing it wasn't completely out of my system. Not sure what they'll do for me now. The neti pot isn't doing the job.
Wheat Grass Smoothie
1 scoop of wheat grass
1/4 cup of pineapple juice
1 pineapple ring
1/4 of frozen raspberries
1/4 cup of flaked coconut
1/2 cup more of less of water
Kind of looks like chocolate when mixed up and it didn't need a sweetener.
I did gain 3 pound from the Endometrin during my two week wait but have thus far lost one pound.
I'll also be adding in DHEA 75 mg daily to my vitamins. Most of the vitamins I was taking I've let run out. I really got tired of being on so many of them.
Today the RE IVF/Donor egg coordinator nurse at my clinic called me. She said that Lt.Col.B. will be calling me later today to discuss my wanting to use femera. I'm guessing he is going to tell me no. But I just found out that our move to Ft. Stewart has been delayed by two months. So maybe with this new information he'll be more on my side since I have a bit of extra time and less rushing on the DE. Oh I'm still going through with the donor eggs. I have my appointment set for March 6th.
Called my PCM this morning. I have now for a week had green and bloody mucus discharge for a week. Time to beg the PCM for help. I just got done with a sinus infection treatment a few weeks ago. I'm guessing it wasn't completely out of my system. Not sure what they'll do for me now. The neti pot isn't doing the job.
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Hitting A Few Snags
This morning I again called the donor egg clinic. They said they emailed me but I didn't receive it. So I chatted with them on the phone. The soonest I can be seen is 6 March. After chatting with them the email that they sent yesterday finally showed up. Too bad the late February appointment they were going to offer me is now gone. Maybe tomorrow the email that they sent today will show up?
March doesn't leave us much time to get the whole process done considering that the Army is not wanting to do testing without having orders to do so first. It doesn't mean it can't be done. But it is going to be really close.
I can say today that after taking the FRER I am not pregnant. I woke up to spotting too. I won't be taking my afternoon dose of the Endometrin. I figure let another cycle start and get things moving. Of course I won't be starting on birth control pills until after my March 6th appointment.
That means that maybe, possibly, Lt.Col. B. might hear my plea and allow me to do a cycle on Femera. I do have my doubts on that one though. But I'm not against begging.
I did try to nudge my current clinic to allow some of the tests to get done ahead of the March meeting. Yesterday I spoke face-to-face with the IVF/egg donor coordinator here at Madigan. I like her. But I don't like the system. The system now in place means that I have to go to the meeting in March first before Tricare insurance will allow me to have the testing done. However the coordinator is going to call the egg bank and see if they can fax her some paperwork now. Not going to hold my breath on that one. Red tape can be quite sticky.
If I am able to get some of the tests done ahead of time, such as the SIS, mammogram and the PAP, I'll one step ahead of the game. Problem is that Tricare doesn't let female patients that have normal Paps and mammograms have the testing done more often than every two years. Big snag there. I won't be at the two year mark until July.
Bigger snag, the military installation I am moving to does not have an infertility clinic. However, I do plan ahead. I just talked on the phone with another egg bank in the future state of my next move. They are going to email more information.
One way or another I'm going to get my family started. I just hate hitting so many snags along the way.
March doesn't leave us much time to get the whole process done considering that the Army is not wanting to do testing without having orders to do so first. It doesn't mean it can't be done. But it is going to be really close.
I can say today that after taking the FRER I am not pregnant. I woke up to spotting too. I won't be taking my afternoon dose of the Endometrin. I figure let another cycle start and get things moving. Of course I won't be starting on birth control pills until after my March 6th appointment.
That means that maybe, possibly, Lt.Col. B. might hear my plea and allow me to do a cycle on Femera. I do have my doubts on that one though. But I'm not against begging.
I did try to nudge my current clinic to allow some of the tests to get done ahead of the March meeting. Yesterday I spoke face-to-face with the IVF/egg donor coordinator here at Madigan. I like her. But I don't like the system. The system now in place means that I have to go to the meeting in March first before Tricare insurance will allow me to have the testing done. However the coordinator is going to call the egg bank and see if they can fax her some paperwork now. Not going to hold my breath on that one. Red tape can be quite sticky.
If I am able to get some of the tests done ahead of time, such as the SIS, mammogram and the PAP, I'll one step ahead of the game. Problem is that Tricare doesn't let female patients that have normal Paps and mammograms have the testing done more often than every two years. Big snag there. I won't be at the two year mark until July.
Bigger snag, the military installation I am moving to does not have an infertility clinic. However, I do plan ahead. I just talked on the phone with another egg bank in the future state of my next move. They are going to email more information.
One way or another I'm going to get my family started. I just hate hitting so many snags along the way.
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Impatiently Waiting
I'm not very patient when it comes to all things Army. Right now the donor egg situation hinges on J's leave. He just got off of CQ duty. He is supposed to be able to take leave on the 1st but they haven't told him if it is approved. I detest this stupid game.
J has 30 days of use or lose this year and as of this LES he has already lost one day. I can read the LES pretty darn well by now. I'm miffed. Every time he puts in for leave someone else is deciding that he can't have it because he is so needed. Yeah, remember back when they didn't want to let him re-enlist because he wasn't needed? BS
I'd like to schedule my SIS and the clinic appointment in Seattle with PNW while he is on his leave. But I can't do that unless I know if he has his leave approved. Friday is a DONSA. He has today off for recovery after working for 26 hours straight. We had better know by Thursday or I am going to be very cranky.
In testing news. I've been testing with Wondfo's since 8 days past the IUI of which the tech said I was definitely ovulating when she did the IUI. HPT every day has had a ghost second line. Just for fun I was using up my Wondfo OPKs since LH and HCG are similar hormones. The second line on those tests is almost as dark as the control line and staying dark since 8 days past.
Today after our marriage counseling session I'm going to mail out the order from my Etsy shop and buy a box of FRERs. I'm done with the ghost lines. I'm sick of guessing. All the nice pregnancy symptoms I had at 8 and 9 dpo are gone. My breasts are back to normal. Not painful. Nausea is gone. Extreme fatigue gone. I think it is over for me for this cycle.
We might do one more cycle since we'll be waiting around to start up with the donor eggs. My doctor said he won't do the SIS until days 5-8 of my cycle. I could have sworn they did it on day 1 when I was going for the IVF. Whatever. Protocols change. I do know that with budget cuts my clinic no longer does Betas unless you get a positive HPT. Last year they would do a beta. Heck now they don't even want give you a script because Tricare has had major cuts to their insurance coverage. I'll be lucky if I even get generic.
So here I sit waiting. I need to find some distraction. Good thing I have a basket of laundry right next to me that needs folding. Just can't put it away since J is napping in the bedroom. Sighs, waiting on that too.
J has 30 days of use or lose this year and as of this LES he has already lost one day. I can read the LES pretty darn well by now. I'm miffed. Every time he puts in for leave someone else is deciding that he can't have it because he is so needed. Yeah, remember back when they didn't want to let him re-enlist because he wasn't needed? BS
I'd like to schedule my SIS and the clinic appointment in Seattle with PNW while he is on his leave. But I can't do that unless I know if he has his leave approved. Friday is a DONSA. He has today off for recovery after working for 26 hours straight. We had better know by Thursday or I am going to be very cranky.
In testing news. I've been testing with Wondfo's since 8 days past the IUI of which the tech said I was definitely ovulating when she did the IUI. HPT every day has had a ghost second line. Just for fun I was using up my Wondfo OPKs since LH and HCG are similar hormones. The second line on those tests is almost as dark as the control line and staying dark since 8 days past.
Today after our marriage counseling session I'm going to mail out the order from my Etsy shop and buy a box of FRERs. I'm done with the ghost lines. I'm sick of guessing. All the nice pregnancy symptoms I had at 8 and 9 dpo are gone. My breasts are back to normal. Not painful. Nausea is gone. Extreme fatigue gone. I think it is over for me for this cycle.
We might do one more cycle since we'll be waiting around to start up with the donor eggs. My doctor said he won't do the SIS until days 5-8 of my cycle. I could have sworn they did it on day 1 when I was going for the IVF. Whatever. Protocols change. I do know that with budget cuts my clinic no longer does Betas unless you get a positive HPT. Last year they would do a beta. Heck now they don't even want give you a script because Tricare has had major cuts to their insurance coverage. I'll be lucky if I even get generic.
So here I sit waiting. I need to find some distraction. Good thing I have a basket of laundry right next to me that needs folding. Just can't put it away since J is napping in the bedroom. Sighs, waiting on that too.
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Looking At My Options With Hope
Well today I finally got the email I've been waiting very impatiently for. Oh and it made me happy.
I have yet to tell J the good news with the email but I'll share it with him later on.
As for the doctor now. Okay RE's office called me yesterday and told me that they wanted a blood count done. I got it done. It was just fine. I'm fine too.
Thankfully the bleeding is light today. I'm hoping it will be done in a day or two since its now CD 10.
So back to the email. I got my password today for the donor egg bank. I've been viewing profiles ever since. I'm a little dismayed that there aren't more donors than originally given at a glance. But that is okay too. I have looked at each profile. I have written down information and will sort through it tonight with any luck.
Yes I want to get this ball rolling as soon as we get word. The word being whether or not J can re-enlist. I'll deal with the rest of the gynecological issues as they crop up. I do have a real worry with the endometriosis. I know that prostaglandins can cause me to miscarry early on. Again I'll worry about that when I have to. I lose enough sleep with the fibromyalgia.
Thank you to all my blogger friends out there that have given me so much support. Now its just a wait and see. For now all I can think of is the cyst that is not going away and how it might make all this a bust.
I have yet to tell J the good news with the email but I'll share it with him later on.
As for the doctor now. Okay RE's office called me yesterday and told me that they wanted a blood count done. I got it done. It was just fine. I'm fine too.
Thankfully the bleeding is light today. I'm hoping it will be done in a day or two since its now CD 10.
So back to the email. I got my password today for the donor egg bank. I've been viewing profiles ever since. I'm a little dismayed that there aren't more donors than originally given at a glance. But that is okay too. I have looked at each profile. I have written down information and will sort through it tonight with any luck.
Yes I want to get this ball rolling as soon as we get word. The word being whether or not J can re-enlist. I'll deal with the rest of the gynecological issues as they crop up. I do have a real worry with the endometriosis. I know that prostaglandins can cause me to miscarry early on. Again I'll worry about that when I have to. I lose enough sleep with the fibromyalgia.
Thank you to all my blogger friends out there that have given me so much support. Now its just a wait and see. For now all I can think of is the cyst that is not going away and how it might make all this a bust.
Monday, August 13, 2012
Working On Things
Yes I've been crafting since I was a kid. I learned to sew at age 4. I did my first needlepoint at age 6 according to what my mom wrote on the cardboard backing to the item she framed. She was very proud of me. By age 11 I had earned most of the Girl Scout badges in the handbook. Over achiever. So now what do I do with the skills that I've learned? Not much.
In my shop there is presently nothing listed. If you go to the site you'll see by looking around what I used to sell under the 162 sales. I had it open for about 1.75 years when I closed it. I was preparing to move to Korea of which never happened. I closed it too soon. I ended up moving to WA instead about 8 months after I closed the shop.
Now for other matters.
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Its still going. I've been eating quick carb, salt, sugar foods to keep my energy up. Thus I've put on 2.5 pounds. One cannot eat macaroni and cheese boxed food without paying the consequences if one is sodium sensitive. I feel like a puff ball.
I haven't called my doctor yet today. As a matter of fact I haven't even been awake for but an hour as I type this. I've been sleeping a lot from the fatigue. I do have some hope that the bleeding will soon slow down as the rate of passing clots has slowed to twice an hour rather than every 15 minutes.
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Its Monday so my spouse is back at work and its not like I'm going to go walk over for an appointment. His workplace is sick of him asking for time to go drive me to appointments. They got fed up with it in June when I had the surgery. So if I can't walk to the appointment its not going to happen. This is the Army we are talking about. They don't pay enough for an enlisted soldier to keep and maintain two vehicles. They don't want you to have family. I've said before the old saying, "if they wanted you to have a family they would have issued you one.". Its true.
So with that said I will call the RE office and let them know what is going on. I will also tell them what I am doing to take care of said matter.
I'll work it all out soon. Still no word from the frozen donor egg clinic. I have emailed them no less than three times. Nothing in my email or spam folder from them. Maybe they don't like my email address? I'll have J try to email them from his official email account since mine has to be re-certified.
My pelvis still hurts, pain still goes down the right thigh. I was hoping that the cyst would have ruptured by now. No such luck.
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