The Loss of a Non-Pregnancy

The lab work is in:
P4 was 14.10
E2 was 174
Beta less than 1.

After I got my numbers I got a dressing down by Nurse JF at my Army clinic for "banging on the back door" and "requesting labs that weren't ordered".  She said I was inconsiderate.  Since the nurses weren't in yet it had to be a certain doctor that complained.  The other doctors have instructed me to knock on the back door if the front door is locked.  I was just doing what I was told to do.

Let me say this, I checked the front door which should have been opened at 0730 hrs and it wasn't.  I knocked on the back door when I saw Mjr. S scoot in.  Yeah she saw me coming.  The very doctor that did my SIS and hurt me in the process.  So she finally came to the door with my knock and wanted to know I needed.  I told her what wasn't ordered and she told me to go around to the front as the nurses weren't in yet and have C order it.

This hospital, in general and not just the RE clinic, has lost records and faxes before.  They have forgotten to put in lab request and have forgotten to send lab reports to other offices.  They never sent over the SIS and HIV results that were needed for this DE IVF cycle, or my P4 results from the last ultrasound or the Beta draw from last week.  This is sloppy.  I have to be my own advocate if I'm to get better treatment.

I asked Nurse JF today if I can still get an appointment to address my pelvic pain.  She said I would have to go to OB/GYN.  I asked her if I was being dismissed from the clinic.  Any wonder why I would think that after being giving a dressing down for knocking and asking for lab draws?  Nurse JF tells me that I'm not being dismissed and wanted to know why I would think that.  I said that I'm getting old.  She tells me I'm not that old then asks just how old I am.  I tell her that I'll be 44 in July and she said something like, "well you will be then.".  Gee thanks I'm thinking  I didn't know the Army had a cut off on doing ultrasounds and blood work.  Sheesh.

After I hang up I have a good cry if there is such a thing.  I call my mom and give her the bad news.  She says she understands how I feel.  I explain to her that she doesn't understand and that I don't expect her to understand how I feel since she is a mom and has two children with never a miscarriage.  She tells me, "I would have carried it for you."  Mom got to go J is calling me....thank God!  I'd rather not have to tell my mom that no thanks but you are near 70 and don't have a uterus.  But she was trying to be thoughtful so I was glad for the call waiting beep.

Later I call J's parents and tell them what happened and that we were using donor eggs.  The fault seems to lie with his sperm now from what we can tell.  We'll be doing a WTF appointment as soon as we can schedule one.

Nurse JF calls me back and she can here me crying and asks me what is wrong.  Really?  So I tell her that my heart is breaking through hiccups.  She doesn't sound very sympathic nor apologetic.  Since she was the one that gave me the bad news and then a dressing down she should at least understand a bit being the fact of where she works.

She tells me that Dr.B., one of whom did my Lap last June, is willing to see me at 1400 hrs today for my pelvic pain.  I swear if they try to say one more blasted time it is my bowels without even looking I'm going to scream.  I had that said to me twice last week without an exam.  Each time I tell them no I drink about 120 ounce of water a day and eat plenty of fiber.  I have BMs usually twice a day thank you very much!  I'm not constipated which can usually happen to a woman on the PIO shots.

I'm thinking it is either cysts from the estrogen I was on for five weeks or the endometriosis which gets aggravated by the estrogen.  I have bilateral pelvic pain.  I hope I stated that right.  Left and right lower quadrant pelvic pain.  If I move too quickly, bounce or stretch the pelvic region when trying to do morning stretches I have a lot of pain.  I'm not ruling out hernia but I doubt it since it is on both sides.