Though J and I know that this cycle is almost surely a bust we talked, I cried, he consoled me yesterday. Today we talked some more. Because he knows that now he was most likely at fault with the morphology of his sperm being only 2% he is willing to try again.
We are going for broke.
when I got the results of the early beta and they were less than 1 I
started to research. I went deep. Today I called SRM. I've used SRM
before and even though I didn't have luck, I used my own eggs back then,
I'm willing to give it a shot again. Why?
offer two donor egg programs. We could well afford the first one that
has absolutely no guarantee of a take home baby and gives us only 6
mature eggs. Or, and I'm choosing the or mind you, we could go with the
guaranteed plan where they have to give you a take home baby or you get
your money back at the end of 5 attempts. If we withdraw early from
the plan before we get the take home child then we get 80% back. I'm
sure the cost is going to make us scream because right now I have only
just enough saved up for the single shot. But we are going to go for
J feels like he owes me this.
I told him I need him to get his sperm in shape. He can improve his
morphology and has done so in the past. When he got back from Korea in
2008 he was borderline on the morphology and he improved with proper
eating and taking his vitamins. He has really slipped up with drinking
way too much caffeinated beverages, mostly coffee, eating hormone rich
red meats, cold cuts, and so on. Since he is willing to try I'm happy.
We both like the idea of a guarantee. Who wouldn't?
J will have to tell his parents when we get the
beta results about donor eggs so that his parents don't decide to place
blame where it isn't due. I tried and I won't be anyone's scapegoat. I
lost weight, exercised, refrained from any sort of sex, gave up
exercise when told to and so on. You all know the game; especially
those of you that have done donor eggs.
Now to any of
my readers, if you have used the place I linked to, let me know your
experience with their guarantee program. I'm interested.
When I do the WTF appointment I'm going to be asking a lot of questions!