Last night, after the election votes were mostly in, J and I talked about ending the fertility treatments. I know that we had a plan on when we would stop but we couldn't remember the date.
Maybe it was the end of this year?
Was it when he ETS's?
I guess we'll have to talk a bit more about it soon.
J is rather annoyed with the outlook for our future. I know it looks bleak with the economy being so bad. If he has to leave the service he'll be competing with many others for the same job. He has already run into problems with his job searching. Seems he is over qualified for one level but under qualified for the next level up.
Another issue plaguing us is Obama care. We can't afford health insurance if he leaves the military and has no job waiting for him. I can't afford to get sick either. I know that my health isn't good. We won't qualify for public assistance either. We are just one of the many that slip through the cracks of a very broken system.
We had hoped that things would have gone differently for us. We knew that there were infertility issues when we married. We knew that we would need insurance to help cover some of the costs of treatments. Without the military medical coverage when he leaves the service all treatments will have to stop. No donor eggs. No adoption either.
Seriously who would want to loan money to an out of work infertile couple wanting to adopt? No one in their right mind. I mean we couldn't possibly support another mouth to feed.
I'm not putting off job hunting. I'd like to start looking now but I know for a fact that my income won't be near enough to keep us looking in only one state for J to find work. We've lived apart for so long already too. We want to be together now.
I know that if R had one last night it wouldn't save J's job but I wonder if it would have helped the country? We'll never know now. Much as Obama has some good points in his presidency he also has a lot of bad ones that make me really fear the next four years. Sure women's health is a good thing if you can afford the health insurance. But I can't. Will I get sent to jail for being uninsured?
Has anyone read this book yet?