Monday, November 12, 2012
He also told me that if I want to get any professional beauty treatments to book them because I deserve them. Rarely do I do something nice for myself. Unless of course you count home coloring, home manicures, and home facials done all by me of course.
I want to cry some more. I've had a hellacious weekend.
I've cried, cried some more and now I feel like crying again. I almost know for certain that the beta tomorrow will prove to be negative again. I gave up home testing days ago.
I need for this sinus infection to go away. Until I'm proven to be not pregnant tomorrow I can't take much above a baby asprin to treat the pain I'm having. Certainly not a decongestant, heaven forbid I'm pregnant and am actually forming a mucus plug, as I couldn't forgive myself if I royally screwed up a potential pregnancy.
Many of you know exactly how I feel right about now. It's the damned if you do, damned if you don't.
Oh and I tried to smile when I saw the flowers but it hurt my face too much to smile. I'm only getting blood out of my nose now. Who wants to join me in my misery today? Who out there today needs some love too?