I started this morning. I rather knew from the ultrasound that this cycle was going to be a bust when even my doctor had no confidence.
I called my clinic and left a message with them to try to schedule a mid cycle ultrasound. This means if all goes well I'll be ovulating a few days before Christmas.
In other news, a friend offered me a rare gift today. I met this particular woman while in college. She is married to one of my husband's friends, again from college. She and her husband are lucky enough to have three sons.
The gift she offered me was precious. She, from what she said, has been talking with her husband for a while about what J and I are dealing with in infertility. She is willing to be the donor and surrogate for J and I.
Now the only problem is that she lives clear across the country. J doesn't yet know about the offer. You can bet I'll be talking about it with him tonight.
It is something we'll need to talk about for a while too.
With my stage III endometriosis the chances of me being able to donor eggs and having a baby as a final outcome and not another miscarriage are slim. I realize that if I do have my friend do all this for me that my insurance won't cover any of it and I'll be paying out-of-pocket. More to think of. I can't put us into further debt for my wants and needs.
I can still hope for a miracle. I don't deserve any more than the next person.