Our belated birthday celebration/date night, celebrated the day after he got home, was interrupted by a well meaning friend. Since then things have been off kilter a bit with us. Our date was going so well up until that particular point. No means No in my book and folks need to understand that when I tell them no. But this person was insistent.
I'm not going to mention the person's name but seriously they over stepped their bounds and it bugs me. I've been wanting to talk to that person but I'm not sure what to say to them. For now I guess, until I have something nice to say to them, I'll let it go. The time J and I had together got mucked up by the intrusion. Its now lost. Our time together is precious with the upcoming year which will most likely be spent apart.
I think I'll just have to take some time to reassess some friendships I have, their boundaries, and why I'm not being taken seriously when I say no.
So for now I'm really looking forward to this long weekend. We've been needing this time together for a while. Soon I'll be on the hormone injections and I can't say for sure what my mood will be like or what I'll be up to besides the possible temper tantrum, crying jag, or wallowing in self-pity that too many hormones can cause.
I'm still losing weight so maybe that will be my bright light in the darkness of my moods. Maybe I can cling to the hope that I'll reduce my risk factor even a tad. Right now I'd score a 26 for high risk pregnancy. 10 is the minimum I'd need to be considered a high risk pregnancy. If I can just eliminate the overweight factor I can drop it by 5 points.
So much going on in my head today, my thoughts are scattered. But yes, I'm truly looking forward to some quality time with the manflesh.
May you have some mantastic quality time. I'm rooting for you! And I'll try to be on my best behavior and never overstep. So far, so good? ;)
ReplyDeleteSending hugs and love!