As I type this post I'm waiting to get my call from the fertility clinic on the time scheduled for the IUI tomorrow. Alas I don't have as many ripe follicles as last cycle. Again I have only a 5-6% chance to conceive in this cycle.
At best I have one or two more cycles for the clomid therapy. There are other procedures that can be done and I just might have to explore those options.
I'm ready to be a mom. I've always wanted to be a mother. I know I can give to my child the attention, patience, and guidance that it will need. I am scared. I'm scared that I will never get the chance to experience motherhood in all its ups and downs.
A woman is most fertile between the ages of 18 and 25. Most of us aren't ready to be mothers at those ages. If I had taken that window years ago it wouldn't have been my husband that would have fathered my child it would have been someone else due to the fact that I'm nine years older than my spouse.
New technologies are being developed on egg freezing but for now eggs don't thaw out well at all. Frozen embryos defrost just fine as well as frozen sperm. Our eggs are just too fragile.
The good news is that I am fertile, its just my aging eggs, though I still have plenty to fertilize this cycle. More good news is that my restrictions are lifted. I'm allowed to cook, clean, exercise and so on but with the standard limitations of my back issues and the fibromyalgia of course. I like doing housework. Since I'm a domestic goddess I feel a sense of accomplishment knowing that I have a clean house. I like it when people come into my house on any given day and see that it is clean. Okay well its hard to get my husband to pick up after himself but I give him a bit of leeway on that considering military housing doesn't have enough storage space for all the Army gear that the soldiers are issued. The soldiers need a bedroom all to themselves just to store their gear.
Fingers crossed for you!
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