Monday, June 20, 2011
Courage Is The Motto
It takes no small amount of courage for me to don a dress, heels (yes I decided to wear high heels), war paint and go out into the public eye. I'm very afraid of most people and how they judge me. Or should I say how the women judge one another. We do judge each other and often find each other lacking in many ways.
Would I go again to another ball? Sure. I met a few people and made a few friends.
Friday was spent up in Renton for the most part. My husband found a yard sale that he wanted to go to because they were selling gaming books. Unfortunately when we arrived some one had already cleaned them out. Isn't that the way it normally is? So we ended the day going to a local gun shop in the Tacoma area. J was happy.
I just had to have this compass for some reason. Maybe it will lead me in the direction of my heart's desire. Maybe it will give me the courage that I need to go where I have to. Who knows?
Sunday was unremarkable and I'm glad it was. I needed a day to catch up on my laundry.
Today I had my ultrasound. 1/2 tablet of clomiphene citrate seems to be doing the job. I have two follicles, 28 mm and 30 mm, on the left ovary. I was given a shot of ovidrel and told that I didn't need the IUI because J's sperm count is so high. Why waste the money? Okay so I'm good to go. Now with any luck I'll actually get pregnant this cycle. Fingers crossed that we have a quality egg in the pair.
Now is the time that I need to find my direction, my path and step onto it with courage, patience, and faith. Wish me luck.