Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Utterances From A Fatigued Mind

I'm tired.  J had CQ duty last night which means neither of us slept.  I stayed up late not wanting to go to bed and sleep alone.  Yes, I realize that I do sleep alone when he is deployed but the one night alone drives me to stay up.

My mind is mush.  If I comment on your blogs today and my spelling is awry or what I say doesn't make much sense its because I've had maybe three hours sleep.

Oh sure its easy for everyone to tell me to go take a nap, they don't live where I do.  Day break means this place comes alive.  There is no real sleep when PT begins each morning or should I say when revelry is sounded.   

I can't get 'em up, 
I can't get 'em up, 
I can't get 'em up this morning; 
I can't get 'em up, 
I can't get 'em up, 
I can't get 'em up at all, 

The corporal's worse than the privates,  
The sergeant's worse than the corporals,  
Lieutenant's worse than the sergeants,  
And the warrant's worst of all!

I can't get 'em up
I can't get 'em up
I can't get 'em up this morning;
I can't get 'em up
I can't get 'em up
I can't get 'em up at all! 

And tho' the sun starts peeping, 
And dawn has started creeping,  
Those lazy bums keep sleeping, 
They never hear my call!

You've got to get up
You've got to get up
You've got to get up this morning
You've got to get up
You've got to get up
Get up with the bugler's call

The major told the captain 
The captain told the sergeant  
The sergeant told the bugler 
The bugler told them all.

So yes this is what is going through my head today.  I had my beta today and will get the results later this afternoon.  I'm thinking bfn as any pregnancy test I've taken of late has been negative and I have no symptoms.  Still no AF and its CD30 which makes me about 5 days late.  Most likely I'm just nervous about the endoscopy tomorrow morning.
 
 

6 comments:

  1. Ugh. The rain isn't helping either, is it? No wonder this region is famous for it's coffee. Hugs to you.

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    1. If only I were able to drink coffee..darn stomach issues.

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  2. Bummer about the sleep....and all the best for the endoscopy tomorrow. I will be thinking of you.

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    1. Thanks. I'm really nervous. Just another reason why this cycle is so screwed up.

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  3. I have the same problem when my husband isn't in the bed. I can't sleep! I hope you get some rest tonight.

    I hope that your beta is positive...even though it may be unlikely. Fingers crossed XXX

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    1. It was negative. But then again I knew it would be. I'm actually okay with that since I really need to have this procedure done. Stress is really messing up this cycle.

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