Thankful

Of late I've noticed that I'm far from alone with all the stress of trying to conceive.  It is like it has hit our community with the force of an epidemic.

Maybe we can find a way to blog less about our stress and blog more about what we are thankful for.

So I'm going to make this post more about what I am thankful for rather than thinking about the stress of my tests.  Oh I have the right to be stressed out.  But I'm sure my followers know why. 

• Even though I have Endometriosis Stage III I am thankful for the fact that I do have my really caring doctor back again at the clinic.
• Even though I have some issues to be stressed over when it comes to my right breast I am thankful that I can get the necessary screening for early detection.  Many women can't afford the test.
• Even though I am in pain daily I can call my network of providers for support.  It might take me a while to get an appointment but I'm not dying.
• I'm fat but in some cases that isn't so bad.  Being fat does have an advantage that if they have to yank out my ovaries I probably won't need estrogen replacement therapy.
• I'm middle aged but that too has an advantage.  I'm no longer in my 20's and 30's worrying about what might happen to me in those decades, like an unexpected pregnancy.  I'm now at that age that I have to plan with very few surprises.  No I am not talking about the infertile community that has to plan at every age for children.
• Acne for the most part is a thing of the past.  The only time my face breaks out now is if my hands are on my face too much or I'm on hormones that can cause breakouts.
• I am finally comfortable with myself.  I know who I am and where I want to be in life.  I'm not worried about what other people think about me as much as I was a decade or two ago.
• I've traveled a lot and lived abroad.  
• I've worked overseas and not just vacationed there.
• Most importantly, when the world seems to have tossed me to the side and even my spouse and I don't see an equal ground, I know that God still loves me and will listen to me.  I just have to be willing to listen for the answer to the problems I am facing that seem so insurmountable.