Three times in the past 24 hours I've told my spouse I wish I was dead. Yes, the pain is that bad. I've tried taking acetaminophen for the pain but that hasn't helped. Often I think that acetaminophen is just a joke but it is one of the main ingredients in vicodin and percocet too.
I think I've forgotten what sleep is. I haven't had two solid hours of sleep in about a week. I know that with my fibromyalgia I will usually get 2-3 hours at a time throughout the night. Of late not even that and its making me more fatigued when the bleeding is added in.
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In the past hour I've passed in less than a 5 minute period two blood clots the size of Eisenhower silver dollars. I thought I was going to pass out from the pain. I guess this is to be expected when my uterine lining was measuring 10.2 mm the day of the embryo transfer. That is a lot of blood and it has to come back out. I just wish it didn't chose to try to come out all at once.
My spouse has offered to come home and take care of me. I might just have him do that as movement is really painful right now. Those of you that have endometriosis and have had a miscarriage will understand how painful things are for me right now.
I could hit the percocet I have here but I'm always so afraid to take it because of the fact that I might build up a tolerance to it. With another egg retrieval due in January I don't want to have the same pain medicine not work. The egg retrieval was very painful. If I was the slightest bit jostled I yelped in pain.
Deep breath in and blowing out. Another wave of pain and cramping just hit. Okay that's it for blogging for me today. Time to go yowl.
I'm so sorry Rebecca. I'm sending you gentle hugs. I hope this passes for you quickly. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteGosh -- that sounds awful. Sorry you are in so much pain :-( I hope it eases up for you and you can get some rest.
ReplyDeleteI don't have endo, but having had miscarriages and cycles where my lining was always at least 11mm, I can relate (*hugs*) Hope the pain eases up soon, sorry you're going through this. Deep breaths, and wishing you had better pain meds.
ReplyDeleteOw! Poor dear! I gather they opted not to do a D&C right after the miscarriage? It's pretty unlikely to build up a tolerance to the Percs if you only take them now and then... I know you have some paradoxical responses, but I would be really surprised if one or two pills now would affect you in January. Good luck and Well Wishes!!
ReplyDeleteHi Rebecca--found you through Mel's blog round-up. I hope you are not still in pain. I have endo, too, and Vicodin works for me. Acetaminophen is a totally joke, I agree. I also take Celebrex. I can't take regular NSAIDs like ibuprofen because of heartburn, but Celebrex is ok.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your recent loss. I'm currently having my first real period since my miscarriage, too. Hang in there.
Hey--thanks for your comment on my blog. I totally relate. I want to die when the pain is bad. That laparoscopy wasn't as easy on me as they made it out to be beforehand, so I think you're smart to skip it since you're doing IVF, anyway. Oh, and I meant to say before, I don't think you'll build up a tolerance to Percocet if you're only taking it for a couple of days. Good luck.
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