Saturday, December 18, 2010
Episodic Vertigo With Leg Paralysis
He comes back to the bedroom with my cane. He helps me up to a sitting position and I try to stand. I failed there. My legs had gone numb. Its happened before. I have an injured back and if the sciatic nerve is being pinched my legs go numb. I don't want a wheel chair or a walker. I try not to use my cane. I do use the handicapped parking spots when needed as it hurts to walk far.
Maybe I'm crazy for wanting to still have kids but just this past month I've seen a woman with a cane and a young child. I also saw a woman with a a walker and a young child. It inspired me to know that if they can do it so can I.
I know that I have enough friends locally that would be willing to help me out if I was out flat for a few hours. For now my spouse is home with me to help. My best bet is that I just did way too much yesterday and I paid for it later. I want to live as normal of a life as anyone my age does and can. Sometimes I forget that I am injured and can't do what other people do so I try to do the task and end up getting hurt. I never forget about the constant pain I'm in but I don't let it get to me. I'm still a cheerful person, well usually. LOL
I have to remember, when the pain gets really bad, that there are plenty of others in the world that are suffering way more than me. I'm lucky. I have a support system.