Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Before A Bump
This is me, 35 pounds overweight. Boy is my butt big! Its the one thing I never see in the mirror and most times I avoid the mirror except when fixing my hair.
I'm still sick by the way. Last night breathing wasn't done easily when I was reclining in bed. I couldn't even have the covers near my throat. So I got up, took a flash light with me, and I examined my throat in the mirror. With just 2.5 days left of the antibiotic one would expect the throat to not look like it did. The tonsils are still badly swollen and there is a a lot of red back there. It looks almost like I scalded the throat with a hot drink.
I'm now thinking that the antibiotics aren't doing their job. I'm afraid I'll have to go on yet another round of them and it will muck up this scheduled IVF.
Well its just plain and simple mucking up my life right now with being sick. I got a call from my bestie's husband this morning. He asked if I could watch their boys. I didn't want to say no but I had to say no. I don't want to possibly make them sick either. My bestie is in the hospital and has to have emergency surgery to remove her gall bladder. I just don't want to make her kids sick if I'm still contagious, if this isn't bacterial and its viral of which it could very well be since its obviously not responding to the antibiotics when I still have a green nasal discharge too. Can you imagine how I'd feel if I got my best friend sick? We all know that could happen with her immune system being compromised from surgery too. All I'd have to do is pass this on to her kids and they'd easily pass it on to her.
I really hated saying no especially when her husband needs my help right now. But I think I'm making the right decision. He was told that he would be given the time off to take care of their sons while she is in surgery and recovering in the hospital. I think its best that he takes them up on the offer. Their children aren't yet registered at the CYSS as they thought they had no need for that before this situation. CYSS is child youth school services. Basically its a day care and after school program for the children ages 6 weeks on up. Its not free but it is on a sliding scale according to rank.
I have a follow up appointment for next week to see if all this is cleared up. I'm really hoping it somehow disappears by next week Wednesday. I want to go through with this upcoming IVF.
Wow I feel so guilty letting a friend down when she really needs me. I hope she'll understand.