Sunday, September 2, 2012
Its CD7. The OPK line is starting to darken. Will I have a chance with my shitty eggs this cycle? Who knows. But I'm going to give this cycle my best effort. I'm still going to enjoy my life.
J and I are still hoping to move onto donor eggs soon but we, alas, have to wait on the Army. So until we know how much money we have to use for donor eggs everything I sell in my ETSY shop, see the link at the side of my blog, will go to cover the infertility treatments or possible adoption fund that the medical insurance doesn't cover. After paying out-of-pocket for numerous IUIs and two IVF we have to be careful with what money we have left in the savings. If J does have to leave the Army we'll need that money to survive on until he can find steady work. Time has run out on us trying to conceive without the aid of medical intervention. Hopefully my shop will yield a few dollars to help pay for a bit of the process of getting a child.
We have not ruled out adoption. Adoption is just going to take a lot longer and more money than going the donor egg route. I hate to even think that the donor eggs will fail because then well, I'll just break down and cry and cry and cry. Not like I haven't done enough crying already.
Why donor eggs? Well as we all know men tend to bond more quickly with someone they have something in common with. What is better than sharing DNA? I will more than likely bond with the baby while it's in my womb. I could care less about my own DNA except for the fact that it would have saved us a chunk of change that we could have put into the child's college/trade school fund.
So here I sit watching the line darken and having some hope for a possible easy future. Ugh, there is no "easy" with endometriosis so I'm not sure why I even used that word. But I think that most of you know what I mean. If all goes well I'll be ovulating right around the time the RE checks me out which will be on Tuesday. Fingers crossed, legs wide open, eyes covered by crossed fingers that I see some follicle and not MEGA huge cyst activity on the ultrasound machine on Tuesday.